Long way down the road...

LIES!!

2010-05-05T23:27:00.005+08:00

Been so long since i last blogged.
Guess it'll be pointless for me to update my life too.
Shall just blog about a random thought that i have a strong feel of it tonight.
Have u ever wonder hw much truth is there when someone tells u sth?
I guess trust is the mechanism that kps human relations going...
Once broken, it'll be hard to find it back...
In life, there're alw many occasions wen we have to risk the chance of breaking this mechanism.
Then i wonder again...Is there anybody in this world who doesn't even cherish this mechanism at all?
The answer is Yes. I guess there is.
I alws have this thinking, wen you tell a lie, u r treating the other party as an idiot.
But one day, will ppl treat u as an idiot as well?
Oh well, i guess i do look like one. If not, things will not repeat itself over n over again.
Guess human's nature is deteriorating day after day.
When a beautiful picture is painted upon a pile of shit, how can u righteously say that it's a pretty picture? It's more like a pretty piece of shit. In chinese, this is called 睁眼说瞎话。

Then again, on a 2nd tot,
Privacy is meant to be private.
When one lies about his/her privacy, it sounds totally justifiable.
I guess i just don't like the idea of becoming an idiot over n over again.
despite my effort in trying to construct a nice picture of u, u r consistently showing ur ugly side to me and tarnishing everything.
n i just find it terrifying at how lies can be concealed at times.
how disappointing eh...
Wen a bird has just found a place to build his nest, the wind once again destroy the nest.

One thingy to note is that in life, there can be alot of cumulative events that contribute to the success and failure of sth. It feels torturous to be hurt by others. bt have u ever hurt others before? In this context, it's definitely justifiable.

2009-11-15T18:38:00.005+08:00

Have not been updating lately..
Just couldn't find the mood to blog..
Lotsa stuff happened during this period of time..
Went to taiwan for the 1st time in my life.
Attended an engagment/ wedding dinner which the host is sumone dear to me. Yes..my bro has found himself a life partner.
Though the dinner wasn't considered quite pleasant to me, i still feel happy for my bro.
Suddenly developed a thinking in the midst of the dinner...
No matter wat the onlookers have to say abt the marriage.
No matter hw many promises we can make to take care of whoever.
N no matter hw grand or how ugly the dinner can get, it'll be the newly wed couples who are going to face their future.
Nothing matters more than wat they yearn for in their marriage, true promises made deep down in their heart.
Best wishes to them. haha..:)

Watched "2012" last night...
It is a fantastic show that i'll strongly recommend.
Life has become so insignificant and helpless in front of the diasters.
Hearing again n again the loved ones at the other end of the line bidding farewell to u before they meet their fate.
Staying alive isn't any better than perishing tog w them.
bt of cos, there are alw souls on earth who cares only abt themselves.
can we say that they are selfish?
bt who on earth will always regard others above themselves?
i guess no one noes the ans until we were in a similar situation.
Perhaps the noble ones are only a handful.

There are many ppl coming in n out of our life.
n i'm sure everyone has a certain "worth" in our eyes.
hw do we determine this "worth"?
A similar thingy said by two different persons could produce very differing reactions from the ppl around.
Ever tot of hw much "worth" are u in others' eyes?
I found a nice word that can describe my "worth".
"Agent".
In OTIA, agent is someone who carries out the objectives of the principal.
In dictionary, it's defined as a person or business authorized to act on another's behalf.
In Chemistry, it refers to a substance that causes the reaction.
In short, it means it is the centre/linking platform that bridges all the other substances around.

Maybe someone mite ask, wat's so bad being an agent?
It sounds so impt and essential in life.
However, agents are usually easily forgotten...
agents will nv have the chance to shine..
agents will always have an expiry date.
n most importantly, agents are easily replacable.
Anyone can be an agent, n be an actor at the same time..
bt an agent can only be an agent..
cos an agent has loses it's potential to be an actor.

Today is a bad bad day..a super pessismistic day.
nth has happened bt tots are just flowing round my mind.
Hope tmr will be a better day...

Quotes from Shows

2009-09-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

“ 曾拥有的东西是不会失去的。。。"

在连续剧中无意地听到这番话
虽然它在瞬时间被我的脑袋拷贝下来
但是我觉得它缺乏说服力。。。
拥有真的依偎着永恒吗？

怎么有时我觉得我失去的甚至比拥有的还多 :(

" I wonder, do we all know where we belong?
And if we do, why do we so often do nth abt it?"

~Movie: Beyond Borders ~

Awaiting to encounter my Home. Place that i belong.

Marley and Me

2009-07-12T18:09:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Marley and Me..
The show has gotten me abit sentimental here.
it is a nice show indeed. :)

There will be parts of our lives wen we do feel lonely and the unbearable emptiness.
Search of companions and soul mates commence to fill the gap.
bt wen life starts to get interesting, these companions are deemed as redundant and sometimes, an irritator.
ppl shoo them away and hope tt things will get even better w/o their presence.
one fine day, wen they are really not ard anymore, will we start to miss them again?
Will we have regret and blame ourselves for not treating them better in the past?

In Marley and me, a Labrador plays the role of a companion.
like any other living things, he went through the life cycle leading a super interesting life in my pt of view.
World's worst dog is an 'achievement' that he earned himself.
wen he's dying, the whole family grieved for his departure.
bt well, he's just moving on to the nxt stage of his life i guess..
this reminds me of another show that i watched recently.
it's about a war horse which has been reared by the king since young.
in one of the battle, the king had fallen off the horse back after been shot by an arrow frm the enemy soldier. he was surrounded by the enemy troops dying to kill him for honour.
The horse could have fled for its own life..
bt it stayed and tried to protect the king with its body.
of cos, in the end the horse didn't make it but the king did.

I guess it's true that some animals are really true frenz of human beings.
cos they have no use for fancy materials..
U give them ur hearts and they'll give u theirs.
How many ppl can make u feel extraordinary?
I really wanna noe..:)

~Deprivation~

2009-07-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

In addition to the " Holidays Enjoyments" i mentioned in my last entry, i have new stuff to add!
Had lotsa more badminton games, steamboat, night safari trip and more mit ups!!
Shuang!! until now i have been enjoying...
really feel like trying stuff tt we dn often do...
such as Kayaking, rock climbing etc.
Hopefully for the rest of my holidays can have these activities planned in.

Argh!! i'm having headache nw...:(
have the mood to blog bt cant think of anything nw..
will blog again wen i can..:)

I hate my deprivation of attention! Sorry for watever i should be sorry for. :(

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2009-06-14T19:57:00.009+08:00

Last Entry published 09 Feb 2009...
Wah!! Pretty long ago eh? haha..
Ppl usually has daily, weekly, or monthly updates..
Mine is once every few mths..wat a lazy blogger!! :S

Anw, lotsa stuffs has taken place during these 4 mths..
After CNY is filled with rev, tests and exams..
Oh ya..an update with respect to my previous entry, i have acquired my driving license after my 2nd try. :)
Life after exams has been quite fulfilling too.
Played badminton, went prawning, gatherings, movies, K-Box, celebration of bdays..
i hope there are more enjoyments coming up be4 my financial status turn from yellow to red. haha..
I nd a job soon i guess..so hopefully lobangs will approach me once i nd them!! haha..

Just went jogging after so many mths..
Actually felt abit of pressure on my heart. :(
hopefully tt's cos i haven been jogging for quite sometime and not some health problems coming my way. :(
shall start watching my diet soon!!

As usual, jogging alw allows me to reflect n think of happenings ard me.
Realised tt human r/s boils down to one bloody word : ~ RESPECT~
Respect makes strangers into friends.
Respect makes family bonded and stays in harmony.
Most importantly, respect makes others respect u in return.
Without that, ppl starts quarrelling/ have arguements..
ppl starts to tok in a weird manner..
ppl starts to bu shuang and r/s starts to fall apart.
A simple word that everyone understands bt not everyone practises.
Easy to lose bt hard to earn.
a fundamental need which all the others build upon.
However, respect doesn't mean must behave in a polite n orderly manner.
everyone has differing definitions..
what's urs? haha..:p

Oh ya!! the entry before last i mentioned tt rosie is leaving for US.
today, she's back!! haha..
c? it only takes one entry time for her to return back to home..fast rite?
wuahahahaha!!

CNY Updates...

2009-02-09T00:17:00.003+08:00

Heyo! Wanna update on CNY 09 ~~
feel tt CNY is getting more n more sian yr after yr leh..
duno issit just me or it's due to the economic downturn.
Nonetheless, did some visitings and still managed to have some fun in between.=D
Thks so much for all those who have invited me for visitings..
most importantly, contribute to the sum of angbao money i've collected!! hee..
i think it's quite a miserable sum leh..wonder how do i last until holiday.:(

today is the last day of CNY le..
does tt means tt all enjoyments shld come to an end?
Serious mugging has to take place soon i guess..
think i shldn't let myself dwn again by nt kping my own promises..
sooooo..soonhui!! please wake up!!! =p

oh ya!! before CNY i just failed my 1st TP..
disappointing, devastating, lost, upset and watever lousy feelings u can think of were felt.
luck is seriously needed everywhere eh?
i do not wanna blame it all on others cos i'm truly at fault in the 1st place.
i'm lazy to repeat the whole story here again..
and it's nt sumthing worth remembering too..
it's over le so it isn't much of a concern to me right nw le.
Hope nxt test i will have better luck n of cos, i nd to brush up on my skills too..:)

being bothered by the same qn again..
must this world be filled with lies??
I hate it wen i have to tell lies cos i noe how pissed and irritated i can get wen i found out someone lied to me.
BUT... it's sumthing so common in this world..
be it white lies, black lies, rainbow lies or watever the colour is, they r still lies.
hw contradicting life can be eh? :(
i wish i have a lies detector!! wuahahaha..

22nd Bday celeb..

2009-01-13T22:29:00.005+08:00

I'm glad to announce that i've stepped into my 23rd year of my life in this world since last friday..
yes!! i'm getting old liao..:s haha..
many of my frenz alr calling me Uncle la..old man la..n watever name tt u can relate with the word "old"...:(
i really feel like knowing wat will they call me wen i'm 60 or even 80 years old..haha..
Actually i dn mind being old la..cos age signifies wisdom rite? haha :o

Wanna thks the Jurong cum Nanhua clique who met up last sat to celeb my bday..
actually i just wanna make it a ordinary outing before everyone starts to get busy again with their sch work n life..
bt i'm seriously glad n surprise tt they prepared a bday cake for me towards the end of whole outing..
they even sung bday song rite in the centre of the basement of JP 2 . gosh!!
to be frank, i felt abit shy n shocked la..so many ppl tt nite..luckily they din reveal my age on the cake..hee..
thks ladies n gentlemen...really appreciate the efforts and i enjoyed myself tt nite! :)

Made some simple wishes at the 1st minute of my bday...
this is the 1st time i'm so serious in making wishes..
Hope they will come true and may those i love be blessed. :)

Oh ya..rosemary will be leaving for US in a few hours time..
Jie...if u were to read this..
seriously sry for nt being able to send u off k? Although we would love to be there also..:(
Hope u take gd care of urself while away frm this land..
Keep often contact with us to let us noe u r fine..
Didi wish u all the best and have a safe trip there n back..
Miss you!!

幸福不灭 recommendation..

2009-01-01T18:30:00.004+08:00

Show's album is finally out!!
Been waiting for quite long le..
i simply love this song below.
~幸福不灭~ also known as ~ Cause I Believe~
This is one of the songs in Hotshot.
it gives a very touching and sweet feeling..
Enjoy!!

Arrival of Year 2009!!

2009-01-01T17:28:00.004+08:00

Another year of memories has been added to our "archives".
HaPpY NeW yEaR everyone!!!
i was sitting on my bed trying to recall things tt have happened in Year 2008.
realised there are just too many events that have taken place.
from major events such as lotsa and lotsa of 21st bday parties, my ORD, going back to sch to minor stuff such as 1st clubbing exp, 1st driving exp and etc...
as compared to the previous years, think i can conclude that i have grown up in Year 2008.
leapt passed alot of impt hurdles and checkpts in life..
i am satisfied with the harvests and delighted that my resolution to make Year 08 a better yr has successfully been accomplished!!
It is indeed a remarkable year for me. :)

Here we are in Year 2009...
brand new chance to start afresh.
guess alot of stuff, esp those unhappy ones, shld be left behind.
hope i will no longer be as stubborn in holding on to stuff tt i ought to let go..
at the same time, i will cherish things that i have even more
dn like the feeling of losing things that i once owned.
the primary objective now will be on Studies ba..
i think my laziness is somehow hindering me from working on it.
will have tt rectified soon i hope..haha..

As for my resolution, will still be roughly the same as Year 2008.
Make this year a better yr..more achievements, more happenings, more self discipline, more opportunities to satisfy my hunger for knowledge.
last bt nt least, to SLIM DOWN!!! Has been part of my resolution for duno how many years le..it's time to really think of way to get it done le..hee..

Ok..wish all my frenz/ loved ones a smooth sailing year ahead.
Some of the gers are graduating in this coming years...
Hope they can get gd jobs and earn lotsa money so can treat us!!haha..
Though this yr dn seem economically stable and will be full of turbulences, we shall still enjoy ourselves and stay cheerful!!
Jiayou jiayou!!

Emo-ness in trend..

2008-10-20T22:11:00.005+08:00

ha..realised sumthing...emo-ness is seriously in trend nw eh?
besides eating, drinking, slping and studying, emo-ing is wat we do most.ha..
everyone gets emo very easily..
this is especially so for guys at my age...
i haven see a guy tt i noe who dun get emo at all...
wat's wrong w all of us?
issit due to stress? met challenges tt have completely defeated us?
or r we just trying to build "jail" in the air and imprison ourselves in there?
i guess i'm one of the jailbird as well...
duno y, there r lotsa new songs been released recently, bt my preference are alw the emo ones..
none of the more cheerful songs can make me any happier.

i really duno wat am i thinking...
guess i nearly cant recognise myself as well...
please pardon me for being liddat.
there'll be some adjustments tt i nd to make...
hope you understand..
no matter wat, just bear in mind tt the prob is nt frm u...
humans alw has to adjust to adapt to the changes isn't it?
tt's wat i'm doing...haha..
dun worry!!;)

Moody again..hate myself!!

2008-10-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Went for a jog again today.
It has been quite a while since my last jog.
Finally can find time to get rid of the "Yuck!!I feel fat" feeling..ha!
The initial stage of the jog is seriously boring..
just went on n on n on...........
only after 3 rds rd the track, i began to find the jog interesting!
a few young gers and kids joined the course...
i think the kids are only 1 to 2 yrs old..super cute la!!
they were running after each other w their parents following behind..
wen they r tired le jiu sit on track n rest..adorable!!
one of the young ger is seriously a gd runner la!
eh..or issit cos i'm a lousy one? Hmph!!REFUSE TO ADMIT!!haha..=p
she actually lapped me 2-3 times.
but den i was walking rd to recover my breathe wen she past me k?hee..
As she carried her keys w her, i could recognise the sound of the bell on her keychain as she run.
so i opened my ears wide and paid attention to the sound of the bell..
once i heard it coming nearer, i started to run.
guessed she realised tt and picked up her speed too..
we actually ran side by side for a rd la..damn drama rite?
i was thinking if anyone there noes how to perform CPR in case i fainted.haha.
think i should nt mention wat happened after tt..hee..
can only say as much as i wish to run, my legs refuse to bring me tt far.;(

wen i was jogging, i felt very tired...really tired.
asked myself y am i making myself so tired?
after the jog i told myself, i'll NV let myself feel so tired again..Yes!nv again.
Anw, as i was abt to leave the stadium, the lights rd the track were switched off..
Nice finale man!!Felt as if i owned the stadium....hahahaha..
gosh..fantasizing again..wake up boy!!

Satisfied day...

2008-10-17T23:58:00.004+08:00

Soonhui is a happy boy today!!=)

Went for my driving lesson in the afternoon..
I am glad tt although e cls has stopped for 3 wks, i can still c myself improving!!
No more stalling of engine, more confident on road.
i was also taught sumthing new today..finally la!!
haa..stopping n moving off on slope is seriously quite fun n interesting!!
really looking forward to learn more.;)

After the lesson was movie time..
watched 20th Century Boys!
was so eager to noe the story as it seems more popular den Death Note.
Hmmm..i guess cos it's only the intro of the story, so still nt very up to expectation yet..
i feel it's nt too bad a movie w lotsa flash back..
guess if there's a boost or wat in between will be better.
story telling alone has made it a little dull..hee..
The trailer of the part 2 creates lotsa question marks and triggered my curiosity on wat's gg to happen nxt..
the characters in the movie have somehow made me abit confuse.=p
BUT!!It'll only be out nxt year ard April i heard..
SUPER LONG FRM NOW LA!!haha..
if u like Power Rangers, i bet u will like this movie!haha..
I alw like to pay attention to quotes in the movie..
i have two with me tt i would like to share..
It's nt the exact words but the meaning is the same.

~A small step may appear as a huge leap for the mankind.~

~Man has to do things that man got to do.~

Yes 933 Event

2008-10-12T00:37:00.009+08:00

Yos!!haha..been mia for quite some time.

but wen i looked at my tagboard, i feel so lonely..:(

well, this is still the best place tt i can turn to wen i have endless tots gg thru my brain.

Went to attend a Yes 933 event just now at Music Dreamers' Cafe.

It's a session for the loyal listener of Yes 933 broadcast drama, pact of the 215 to be there to enjoy the last 5 episodes before being broadcast on air next wk.

I am seriously glad that i got the passes for this event!!

haha..nice story, nice place, nice DJs and nice singer..

they still prepared a 2GB thumbdrive as door gift la.=p

n yes..it's 2GB!!quite shocked wen i noe tt..wuhahaha..

guess some of u will start to get jealous le ba?haha..

it's also my 1st time seeing so many DJs and Diya face to face..

haha..i shall say it's a nice experience..

anw, the story really get kinda sad behind..

for those who is actively gg after this drama as well be prepared to get abit emo eh?haha..

the ending is still nice in my pt of view.;)

i will try to upload the fotos on facebook soon..:)

随着天色的暗淡，我的心情也变得灰灰的。

你的用心良苦我并非不懂，但是已经那么明显又何须隐藏？

有时觉得自己就像个巴婆。

但我却无法对你傻傻的自残视若无睹。

就如215里所说的，我确实是个傻子，怎么也学不聪明。

对于你的回应我感到失望。

因为我并不是你所想象中的无知小孩，会照单全收。

小孩有天也会累。。。

真的厌倦这充满谎言的世界！

So many lies, listening to you....

Will i really be fine?

A Hitch in my giddy-up

2008-07-28T17:11:00.005+08:00

Had a lousy wkends..
having a hitch in my giddy-up.
my immune system is down, so is my mood..
wen my mood is not gd, i'll start to have weird tots.
tots tt i alw wanted to avoid though i'm constantly reminded of their existence.
tt's y i hate to fall sick..bt wat can i do?

那仿佛是一杯怎么添也添不满的水。
我开始怀疑我是否有耐力再继续下去。

那是多么简单的一个问题
我也反反复复地问了自己几回。
她问倒了我，我也多次地问倒了我自己。

能否让我看到布满彩虹的天堂？

Betrayal of Conscience

2008-07-07T19:47:00.003+08:00

The momentum of life seems to be getting faster n faster..
before i realise how time past, it's alr 7th July..
Merely less than a mth to the start of sch..
back to hitting books and gg back to lectures.
abit look forward yet cant bear to part w the freedom i'm enjoying now.
C.O.N.T.R.A.D.I.C.T.I.N.G :( haha...

today i'm seriously foolish...a foolish me..
well..i shldn't say i was conned cos i'm the willing party.
my mind was clear and i'm nt possessed or wat-so-ever..
just felt tt if i can help, y nt?
haiz..let's not tok abt tt le..just wanna grumble abit..
after e incident i starts to wonder again..
all of us have been trying hard nt to betray our conscience..
BUT!!
ever think before whether our conscience will betray us one day?
i guess it's a topic worth thinking of...

Yeah!!i went for a jog this afternoon..
after i got injured, it's the 1st time my legs serve me more den just walk me ard..
well..the distance covered is nth fantastic, just 3km..
but the sense of achievement was felt!!woo!!haha..
it really feels gd to sweat it out!!
abit tired now...
gotta suffer from the aftermath ltr le..:(

Hectic but fun wkends

2008-06-24T08:17:00.005+08:00

Heyo! Back to work in office is rather sianz..so decided to blog 1st.hee..
The past wkends r super hectic, super tiring BUT it's also super fun!!
On sat we went for weizhe's 21st Bday Celeb at Beaulieu House in SBW Park.
Although the place is quite Ulu ( but quite accessible), it's a nice place afterall.
The ambience there is excellent for dating couples! haha..
Weizhe is one of my dearest bro since sec sch days..
HaPpY BiRtHdAy Bro!! ( as of 220608)

After leaving the celeb ground, we went vivo to catch a mid-night show, Get Smart.
Heard that the show is not tt bad.
I duno whether is becos i was too tired or wat, dun really find it interesting.
there are some parts that r indeed quite amusing..
i think i did dozed off for ard 5 to 10 mins in between...hee..
but like i say, it maybe becos i was too tired..haha..
Anw, the main purpose of the show is to kill time..so dun really mind..

After the movie we were trying to find way into sentosa..
5 hungry, tired, sleepy and sweaty souls walking on the rd..
wanna take cab in also nobody wanna send us...helpless!!!
somehow our luck is not really tt bad...
a Merc Cab was on call and heading into sentosa picked us up and i really idolise his driving skill...
den, we had our most secretive bathe ever in the resort..
at ard 5am, we were really glad we made a rite decision cos IT WAS RAINING FREAKING HEAVILY!!haha..

At 7 am, finally our work started..
the " black fat pig" started all her nonsense and pissing each n every of the crew off..
i realised a theory from that..
a grp of strangers can easily b bonded tog if they have a common enemy!
haha!
but to be frank, the work is indeed a nice exp and it was fun!!
i alw like to work tog w frenz esp in a event..
Big thanks to Shuyi and her bro for providing such a opportunity.

After all the fun n excitement, tireness is the pathetic aftermath..
till now i haven fully recover though i had a day of rest yday..
guess rest of the 4 of them will be worse..
ok..gotta go back to work le!! boo!!:(

Where do i stand?

2008-06-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

Suddenly tot of something i once told ken before..
at tt pt of time, i was actually quite confident tt i will be chosen.
bt i think otherwise now...
sometimes actions, reactions n expressions tell more den words..
revealing lotsa unspoken truth...
i hate the feeling to be within this No Mans Land..
tell me where do i stand?
when there r so many ppl ahead of me...

Y cant human being be more simple?

2008-05-30T13:06:00.004+08:00

Wuhahaha..Mia for quite some time le..
really quite lazy to blog...
Quite a couple of incidents took place during this period of time.
Celebrated Suling's bday 2 wks back..
Had a nice time catching up w the JJ Peeps..
i think we had the best chat since we left JJC..
Quite a number din turn up...:(
Really hope there will be a cls gathering soon..
some of them like zimian will be leaving soon le..

Had a surprise celebration for my Fanz also!!
My one and only Fanz leh...haha..
Yes...Our plan did caught her in surprise..
Hope that she had fun tt day..
There r still some time to enjoy ur last few days in ur 20th!!
thks to meikee and her mum for making the surprise a success..

oh ya!!!I passed my basic theory!!!finally took 1 step forward closer to driving!haha..

Human beings can be really scary at times isn't it?
Zhizhong just told me of a video regarding a woman making horrible remarks over the china earthquake.
Well, i feel disgusted by tt woman anw...
i guess alot of things in this world cant be understood until tt incident happens on tt particular person.
Been witnessing alot of the ugly side of human beings..

Y cant human beings learn to compromise wen they shld?
Y cant human beings learn to understand?
Y trivial matters have to be exaggerated and make a big hoo-ha out of it?
Y cant human beings be more truthful?
Can human beings mean wat they say?
Can we be simple?

The ans is No. Sad to say...

China Earthquake

2008-05-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Natural Disaster is seriously detestable!!
the China earthquake recently has alr taken close to 20000 of lives.
20000 is really a huge number..
duno how many families have been broken...
how many children has become orphan..
20000 are the ones that have ended their sufferings..
i'm sure there are alot more who have just started their sufferings.
well, i noe tt we can blame it on nth for all these..
bt stm just cant stand the cruelty of the "Natural".

Glad that the President of the Chinese is standing by them closely.
he encouraged them and urged them to stay strong..
told the orphans nt to cry, the country will be responsible for their life.
it's so touching to hear these wen u nd help the most, isn't it?

Let's pray for the dead..

Shuhui's Bday celeb

2008-05-11T19:15:00.005+08:00

Had celebration for Shuhui mei yday..

Happy 21st Bday Mei!!!Hug!

We 1st had dinner at Waraku and went for K after tt.

I ordered Udon Soup..

The appearance really disappointed me wen i compared it w the paper steamboat.

let's take a look at it..

Udon Soup

N below is the Paper Steamboat!

Paper SteamBoat

The later looks so much more appetitizing rite? haha..
BUT...
haha..after tasting the udon, i simply fall in love w it..
it just proved the pt tt looks doesn't mean anything!!haha..
it's so true man!wuhahahaha..

Hope u enjoyed urself yday mei...
i am seriously glad to have ur participation in my life for the past 8 yrs..
still rem days in Sec Sch when we alw chat and share secrets?
how i wish we can return to those days...
Kor wish u all the best for ur adulthood.;)
Oh ya! Jiayou for ur internship too!!

Busy working..

2008-05-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

Very long din update liao..
Oh ya..i started working alr. The coy name is OMG!
haha..yes..no joke..it's really call OM Group..
it's a chemical trading enterprise situated in Tuas.
N i'm working under their finance dept..;)
it's nice to be occupied and constantly learning new stuff..
though tiring, it has been fulfilling and has sense of accomplishment.
more importantly, it has boosted the monetary aspect of my life..=)
Thks a million to Zhizhong for the recommendation..

sometimes i really wonder..
life is so funny..
there r definitely some things in our life we cant seem to achieve..
no matter how hard we try..
in fact, the harder we try, the further away it goes..
i named it Theory of Magnetic Reaction of Same Polarity in Life..

sick..:(

2008-04-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

Caught a cold and was quite sick since yday..:(
it doesn't feel gd to have a nose tt is like running tap..
however, i had a funny dream yday...
i still can vividly rem tt i was looking after a grp of children tt are sick..lolx
wake up still asking whose turn to c doc??
haha!!
i think the ans supposed to be my turn to c doc ba..haha..
funny hor?
wen our mind is nt clear, we tend to think of funny things..
my flu has not fully recover..sian man...
hope i can recover my taste soon!
if nt all food is not nice to me...sobz..

Happy Bday Dilys

2008-04-14T16:09:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Dilys Mei...
Yes..today is Dilys's 21st Bday!!
though alr celebrated on the past Sat, hope she still has fun today..
All the best wishes for her Adulthood.
Take Care!

I realised some kids nowadays is really horrible!
Poor-manner, no culture, arrogant......
wat's wrong w our education?
or those tt i saw r the black sheeps?
guess some discipline nd to be instilled into them.
sigh...

Dilys Bday Celeb

2008-04-13T02:27:00.005+08:00

Just came home from Dilys' Bday Celeb.
It's located at Global Sound Cafe, South Bridge Road.
The place is quite nice with cosy atmosphere.
Guess it will be a nice hangout for a mini gathering..
Hope the little princess had fun!

Cant seem to get to slp though feeling very tired.
Same old prob of mine tt's disturbing..:(
Truth is alw difficult to pursue..

Shuxian's bday and work at UOB

2008-04-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

This is a wk consist a mixture of all emotions...
happiness, sadness, disappointment, etc etc..

Celebrated Shuxian's bday yday!
it's a fun n nice party at Hometeam NS Bt Batok.
though it's a chalet surrounded by forest, i find it a nice place for such a gathering/ celeb.
Hope she had fun and love the presents!;)

job at UOB has come to an end!haha..
so fast rite? it's just a 4 days job..as their customer service assistant for the WIS cheque encashment exercise.
experienced alot throughout this short period of time..
bank is really a place where ppl frm all walks of life come tog..
regardless of age, gender, wealth, personality and etc..
frm there, can really see how money makes wonder to every being in this world.
have seen customer tt is rude n very hot-tempered..
bt of cos there r courtesy n polite ones..
no matter which type they belong to, after the transaction they will sure smile w joy!haha..
there's a gentleman who brought his son to the bank today..
his son is so cute la..walk ard the bank trying to explore every part of it..
after the transaction, they walked towards my position where i was leaning against the wall.
tt little boy boy followed me and do the same..
den smile at me w tt cute look..i shall say he made my day!
BUT!!!
his dad spoilt my day!
he saw wat his son is doing, den he smiled n told his son " boy..u following wat UNCLE is doing ah? "
WTH!!!Ppl nowadays have prob differentiating age??!!
after they left, i was there banging the wall w anger!
well, maybe it's me tt is the prob ba...sobx sobx:(
really grateful to those colleagues tt have helped me along during these 4 days..
Esp for Angie, Dorothy, Jenny, Jean n Thomas for helping me w the enquiries frm customer.
The manager, Mabel and the Cisco Security, Zaidam.
they have kept me company wen i was bored. Joke w me and chatted w me..
guess they are rite, JE is a friendly and fun-loving branch..
so glad i was posted there! n i found my source of motivation there too!haha!

I were really unhappy w the decision my parents made laz nite.
Kinda disappointed w their perseverance.
suddenly feel tt trust, love, responsibility is so fragile.
so much encounters and tots recently have made me unable to believe in all these any longer..
The rite person is often given a lousy treatment and vice versa
i hate to be a perfectionist...as this world is too imperfect.
life goes on...

Karma...

2008-04-03T22:24:00.004+08:00

If given a chance, would u like to have a long life span?
I'm sure many ppl will choose to pursue quality rather den quantity.
seeing the condition of my grandma made me feel bad..
she's alr close to 90 in age..shld be considered as healthy for her age..
however, her brain has alr lost the ability to think..
mentality is just like a 5 yrs old kid...
i really duno if it's a blessing or it's a torture for her..
i guess if she's given a choice, she will not wan to go thru all these too..
i feel tt it's a blessing n honour to be able to die at the gloriest moment of my life.
even if i were to die young, i wouldn't mind..
at least i would be remembered and leave this world proudly.

My grandma is really giving my mum a hard time looking after her..
she gotta qian jiu her in everyway becos she's her mum!!!haha!
just like my bro n i alw has to give in to her..
shld i say this is karma??!!haha..so bad rite?hee..
the younger generation alw has to tolerate the older ones..
i really believe in tt...
trying my best to earn myself positive karma.:)

I'm approached on the street again to sign up for credit card.
wen i tell him i'm still schooling, he's like so shocked la!
was thinking wat the hell is he thinking?
is either i look old or i look independent enuff to afford credit card.
i still choose to bluff myself!haha!!!

gotta slp liao..tmr still nd to work. :( nitez!

No entry to wild tots

2008-04-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

" Sir, could i make a sign tt says "No Entry to Stray Dogs and Cats"?
i wanna display it at the entrance of my mind. Thanks. "

The Orphanage & other updates!

2008-03-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

Past 2 wks had been quite busy for me...
Physio, bday celeb, mit ups w frenz, job training etc..
it feels gd to have something to look forward to everyday.
bt the price is the extreme tireness..haha..
everything in this world comes with price isn't it?ha..

Watched The Orphanage on the past thurs with Chieu Hooi and Shuyi.
It was after my job training which lasted for barely 15 mins.
However, we (those who got the job) were there for abt an hr.
the rest of the 45 mins were used to wait for latecomers!
Horrible! I'm glad i arrived early tt day...
so paiseh la..20+ ppl waiting for tt handful. Lolx..
Had lunch w Mic, Chieu Hooi and Shuyi before the movie.
lunch was at Thai Express in PS.
The Tom Yum soup is nice!!
thinking of it made me crave for it now!
it was an enjoyable mit up i guess..
hasn't seen Mic for quite a long time liao..
tt Xi Gyin Na still likes to bicker w me..bleah!!=p
Nxt is Movie time!
Quite disappointed w The Orphanage as a horror movie..
it's the most Wen Xin horror movie i have ever seen..
bt the storyline nt bad la..
i feel it's abit biased against men leh..actually father can be wei da too!haha!
1, 2, 3, knock the wall!!!hahaha..

yday went to Sook Kim's 21st bday celeb..
had a nice catching up w fongyu that gang, X-Horizon.
they are really a grp of lovely gers with strong frenship..
it's nice to chat w them..alw full of laughters!
think tt's sufficient enuff to lead a fulfilling life!
HaPpY BiRtHdAy SoOk Kim In Advance!

working for UOB for 4 days in this coming week..
it's a new work experience..abit look forward!
hope that everything goes fine ah..
Ok la..time to go to bed le!
Till den...

After Gym effect..Ouch!!

2008-03-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

I think i made a very wrong remark yday..
actually the gym training did work.
cant feel anything juz after the gym..like nv train liddat..
i only realised i was wrong wen i woke up this morning..
both my arms and my back have been added invisible weights.
super heavy la..tried to raise den the muscle is super pain.
bt yep!!very long din train up liao..feeling is great!!haha.

received call offering job frm recruit express again.
i think it's 5th or 6th job they are offering me le..
bt can accept none cos they cant allow me to go physio..
haiz..looks like i'm gg to be jobless for quite long liao..
mayb i shld start looking for jobs tt do not have fixed working hrs.
bt i dun wanna work during odd hours..
argh!!so mafan man..:(

Gym..

2008-03-17T22:12:00.004+08:00

Had a tired day out today...
Gym in the morning..
though tired, it's nt a satisfied one..
i dun feel i've trained myself in any way..
i found out how much i wish i can run.
a simple thingy tt everyone can do..bt it's a wish for me..:(

Lunch today is at Nihon Mura.
Meishan n zhizhong joined us after the gym.
So long din c meishan liao..glad to c her today.
anw, food there is quite alrite..
most imptly, it's so cheap la!!
so damn worth it..

went to several recruit agencies after tt..
our luck today is really gd man...
seeing fairy in one of them..
N she smiled at me!!!
bt i duno how to react, too stunned to even smile back!
feel like stabbing myself..
i start to like the colour of black after today..hee..
3 of us are like so reluctant to leave the recruit agency la..
duno wat's the agent toking to her in the rm..
take them so long la..sad..:(

bowling w zhizhong at chevron after tl left..
haha..we bought 2 games each initially..
bt we felt tt we haven't played enuff and bot one more each..
wah!!it just adds on to my expenses and i'm even more broke now!
bt i enjoyed the games la..
thks zz for being such a gd accompany..

having serious headache now..
think i have overworked..

fire and water can nv co-exist..
really wish to ask for a choice between them..
disappoinment just sets in..

ORH LOH!!

2008-03-09T22:24:00.007+08:00

Hey Guys!!I'm glad to announce tt i'm officially civilian le!!

Yes!!i have ORD-ED!

Woo!!being waiting for 2 yrs liao..

finally completed my service..:)

2 yrs of soldier life has come to an end..

flashed back upon the scene wen i 1st stepped into tekong..

was fighting hard emotionally to part with my civilian life..

2 yrs ltr..same fight took place again...

frm now on, wun be booking in like i used to be..

no more cook house wen we will pray hard tog tt it's serving western for tt day..

no more canteen break wen we will play pool n winning eleven in the mess..

no more paper fight in the office like we own the whole office..

no more joking, laughing, singing, emoing, cursing n scolding with all the comrades.

there's a lot of things tt are no more in place..

bt of cos, if we look at it optimistically,

there's no more work n responsibilities...

no more waking up as early as 0430hrs..

no more spending ard 3 hrs on travelling to n fro camp..

Guess there are alw things in life tt we cant wait to part with and cant bear to part with..

these made life become so contradicting..

nevertheless, life still gotta move on...

crossed another impt stage of my life..shld be glad isn't it?

actually i shld be thankful tt i had a wonderful NS life..

being an Admin Support for 3/4 of my NS life..

though it's not a combat vocation, i get to enjoy it totally..

get to participate in NDP 07 and some big events in my unit..

the other 1/4 is BMT and life in 35th battalion of Singapore Combat Engineer.

tasted both combat n service life..

learnt to chiong and to slack..both physically n mentally..

tt's how army makes wonder in turning boy into man ba..

I felt i have become more mature..noe wen to get serious wen there's a nd to..

let's hope this will lead me and aid me in my future.

all the best for those who are still serving..it'll be ur turn soon!

lastly, ORD LOH!!!hehehehe...

eh..now i nd a job...

got lobang pls let me noe ya..haha!

SooOOO...tired...

2008-03-02T01:00:00.004+08:00

I'm getting tired..too tired..
i juz have too much tots on my mind to sort out..
so much tt i have given up doing so.

I think it has been a long time since i eat so little for dinner.
supposed to feel hungry but i'm not..
something's nt very right somewhere..
anw, tonite's dinner at Pasta De Waraku was fine..
just feel tt the pasta i chosed wasn't satisfying enuff..haha..
shld go for sumthing tt is not so "vegetably".

Since i dun have the mood to sing at all,
I left after dinner for Hsien Han's bday party..
Felt so bad to have reached so late..
luckily i still make it for his cake cutting..
had a casual chat with Joanna..
she asked a qn tt adds on to tots on my mind.
another qn tt i dun wish to think abt..
though i sorta has an ans to it.

tot of sharon's blog tt discussed abt the "Half-cup full or half cup empty" theory..
i think i'm evolving frm an optimist to a pessimist.
Lives of two person just cant balance themselves on the balancing scale. can they?
bt did u ever think abt it, wen u r thinking tt sumone else has made ur life worse, u maybe worsening another person's life too at the same time.
it just tell how true are you..
time for bed..
It's just not me...
HaPpY BiRtHdAy to Hsien Han in advance!

New Family Car!!

2008-02-28T00:55:00.003+08:00

Hasn't being blogging for some time le.
Life has been quite hectic for me for the past 2 wks.
It's nt totally becos of camp matters as i'm clearing my OFFs.
bt camp matters have been troubling me...
alot of problems just cant stop arising..
the admin sect is like fighting war once every 2 to 3 days..
really feel like washing my hands off everything le..
getting sick n tired le..
it's upsetting to noe tt u dun have a gd boss.
mayb my parents r right, it's just 2 yrs of service, y slog so hard?
well..ORD-ing in 8 days time..
where got time for all these?
Wuhahahahaha..
only feel so guilty towards kenneth..
sry bro..leave u to face all these alone...
luckily u have joseph now to help u along.

I think most ppl esp those in uni are very bz recently ba..
this is a "break" week if i'm not wrong..
bt i noe it dun look like a break at all..
more like self-study or project week ba..
heard there were endless assignments to complete.
Hang on there gers! it's gg to be over real soon..
for those who are having exams, jiayou k??
at the same time, dun be too stress..
there's still time after this "wake up call"...
just try your very best!!

Oh yeah!i have a new family car le..
gg to bid farewell to the Altis tt has been serving us for past 5 yrs.
as usual, i feel abit sad again..
though it's just a car, bt it was still part of us for so long liao..
just hope its nxt owner will take gd care of it ba..
All the best..

Wanna wish those who are gg or had turned 21 a Happy Bday!:)

i noe i shldn't have asked noeing u dun wanna tok abt it. Ps!

HaPpY LuNaR NeW yR!!

2008-02-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

Heyo! Hasn't been blogging for sometime le..hee..
Yes!!becos i have returned to camp from my long break.
so hardly online liao..:(
oh ya!!It's just 24 days more to my ORD!!
cant wait man!!haha!!
freedom!!here i come!!=p
N i started to clear liao..
so please rem to date me wen u r free wor..haha..

Quite alot of events during the past mth..
went to attend Yingxiu and Joanna's 21st bday..
both are fun man!!
i start to regret nt taking Aloha Changi for my bday..
it's really damn big there la..
for those who are planning for bday chalet, can consider there..
though it's considered as rural area..
i feel it's still more convenient den aloha loyang..
at least dun have to wait for tt freaking shuttle bus.haha..

The Yr of Rat has also arrived!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone!!
this yr must eat lotsa of cheese hor..haha!!
i feel the new yr this yr abit dun have the atmosphere leh..
chu yi chu er like so leng qing de...
the whole rd nt many cars de lo..
n due to the inflation here n there, it just worsen the atmosphere.
u guys agree??haha..
.......no reply......:(
Nevertheless, we can still cheer n create the atmosphere ourselves!
Happy Lunar NEw Yr!! AngBao leh??wuhahaha..

21St BdAy CeLeBrAtIoN AaR

2008-01-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

Celebration of me crossing frm youth to adulthood has been conducted on the past sat, 12th Jan at Aloha Loyang.

It's really a fantastic nite..having the chance to see so many frenz at one go..

seeing everyone catching up w each other is so comforting..

juz like tt kind of feeling..

though bz..bt u will nv feel tired during the event..

the expression on the face is nth other den a wide smile..

if everyday can be like this, how fulfilling life can be man..haha..

I simply love my cake!!It's so nice man!Cool!!

Oh yA!it's my 2nd bday cake throughout my 21 yrs of life.:)

The 1st is wen i'm one yr old..20 yrs of gap la!ha..

When the bday song was sung, i'm touched rite from the bottom of my heart.

I felt loved and blessed..can i be 21 yrs old every yr?haha..

Foto taking was conducted as usual..
It's really a pity alot of those who came has left be4 the cutting of cake has been carried out.

I apologised for dragging it till so late!!Sry Guys!=(

However, there are still a number of guests ard!Thank God!=)

Mummy N Dadday!!

2/5rians!

4/4rians!

04S29!

Army+Primary Sch Pals!

Dragon 4!!Buddies..I'm so short beside them!!=(

JamiE + WaNli mei!

Chysa n Minchee!

Some Great buddies from SA 04S76.

The ger beside me in white polo is XYG, Shuxian!Bleah!

After cutting e cake of cos muz taste the skill of the chef who baked the cake.

How's the cake? i cant really differentiate the taste wen i'm excited.:)

Nxt will be sumthing i dread to happen all the while! Sabotage!!

Shuhui was the 1st to scope some cream on her finger n kor them on my hand n neck..

Nearly forgot abt it..luckily she reminded me after that..

shall do the same to her wen chances are given!!Hmph!!=p

Jiawei n weiren are really tricky buddies!

they added me into their conversation on msn on the night before the party.

they openly discussed wat they gg to do to me..

i muz say they are really man of their words!!

they did wat they discussed!!Argh!!

Somehow, they managed to get some reinforcement from other frenz..

Whipped cream n cake fight soon took place..

I guessed the foto below clearly explained that i lost the battle.

Great Job Guys! I surrendered!

Help me Fanz!!

Well, some of the frenz mentioned tt i look best like this.=(

Shall put on whipped cream wenever i go out in future!hahaha!!

Anw, it's nt the end!

After most of the guests have left, we had a open present session..

then, i discovered how blessed i am yet wat a lousy fren am i..

hee..shall tok abt it ltr.

Alcohol is a must for parties!!

we did nt let those tigers we bot and the chivas plus absolute vodka pong has brot down!

after a few rds of toasts, my soul has left my body..

soon after, i spent my nite on the bed..only woke up 3 times juz to puke..

thks heowhui!!i noe u r alw there for me wenever i wake up to puke..

can rem i saw u alw holding on to tissues for me to wipe my mouth..

pardon this lousy drinker here k?

i will train up my treshold for alcohol de!!

actually i wanted to leave the nite to have a nice chat w those who stayed..

nvm..shall do it in the nxt partY/ outing!=)

AAR!!

This is actually the 1st time i plan for a party..

has to admit tt i'm really lack of experience..there's so much to take note of..

i kp missing out this n that..so messy..

Lesson Learnt: Systematic planning has to be carried out for any events.

Actually the party did not went smoothly as planned..

we checked in late due to some probs..

den it started to rain!!Argh!brot my mood so down man!

My guests are all soaked in rain..i feel so bad sia!

The small chalet unit also could not hse the number of guests tt came..

made my guests have to squeeze or stand outside at the corridor or pavilion.

regretted nt taking the poolside terrace or bungalow..

wen cutting of cakes n foto taking,

forgot to make my wish n blow the candles be4 i cut the cake..

i hope i did nt leave out anybody wen taking fotos..except for those who left or haven come..

if nt i will be feeling so ps la..bt it's definitely nt intentional de..i can assure..

after tt realised tt i did nt jot down which present is frm who..

was critised till like duno wat wen opening the present..haiz..

bt i admit it's my fault! will pay attention to tt in future de..

last but nt least, my guest bk!!

i put in quite abit of effort in tt man..bt all in vain..haiz..

my apology to shuyi n xj who accompanied me walking rd for tt bk..
oh ya..n i learnt tt wen inviting ppl, muz provide detailed information..

nt only on the party bt also on all other factors directly/indirectly involved..

wah..so much things tt i've learnt!!

i'm another step closer to perfection..whee!!

nevertheless, the party is considered a success ba!Hope everyone had fun!

Present

Received alot of presents for this celebration..

Among all these presents, there are a few quite meaningful and special de!

One of them is the His-Story book compiled by Shuyi, heowhui, shuhui and thongler etc.

I read the whole book word by word on sun...

even the caption of every fotos and so on...
was feeling really touched..these are the ppl who really noe my life..

if i were to write a bio-autograhy, most prob will be abt the same too..

thks man!!to all who have been bz due to this bk..love ya!

i can see the effort n hardwork..will cherish tt bk de!!i swear!!

The other one is the big big bday card from pong..

thks for the msg..make sure u are there for each n everyone of my impt event k?=)

All my gifts!!

His-Story Book!!

My Big Big Bday Card!

Thanks!

I must really thks everyone that have turned up for the party..

W/o u all, the party wun be like a party..

Nxt will be my family members, my dad, mum, bro and his gf..

Esp my bro n his gf...

this celeb aggrevate their injury due to pro-longed standing..

feel so bad man..shld have chosen to go for catering instead..

My mum was helping to clear up the mess during n after the party..

it's damn tedious la..thks man!Hugz..

My dad was ferrying us from place to place..

if he wasn't there, we mite even have difficulty reaching the chalet.

Nt forgetting the frenz too..u guys noe who u r rite?

Shuhui, yongtat, wenfoo, funshen and etc who have been constantly helping w this n tt during the celeb..

N shuyi, heowhui, zhizhong and etc who kp reminding me of this n tt..

I'm too kuku at times..blur like duno wat..haha..thks man!

oh ya!!N jasline for co-ordinating for the 4/4 gathering...

it's nt easy la..so many ppl she nd to contact..thks!

If i happen to miss u out, please pardon me k?

i'm grateful to anyone tt has contributed to the success of this celeb!=)

For those who din turned up, be rest assured tt i understand y k?

Ur wishes has definitely reached me..n it's as gd as u being there!

Thks!

HaPpY 21sT BdAy to Me!!From Youth to a young adult..

2008-01-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

H.A.P.P.Y 21st B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y T.O M.E!!!
Wuhahahahaha!!I'm a young adult le!!Yeah man!!
Crossed another impt checkpt of my life..
stepping into a brand new stage..
I'm really looking forward to wat lies ahead..
be it gd or bad...i'll face it like an adult!
wah!!cool eh?? Anw..how adult face probs eh??
hee..actually i also duno..
well..crapping man..i'll juz be me..a better me!
Ok!!Now..bday wishes!!
My wish is to have many many more wisheS!!!
Yes!!I'm greedY!But who is not rite?haha..

Ooook..let's be serious!!
I hope to be more independent, more decisive, more freedom, more achievements, make more frenz....etc..in short, i hope to have ultimate breakthrough for all aspect of my life!!haha!!
May my family n frenz be blessed as well..
I also hope to have a more peace n understanding family+frenz:)
oh yes!!HaPpY BiRtHdAy Xiuming n Nigel!!
Though 2 of u wun be reading this..bt seriously..
it's feels gd to have ppl who is sharing the same joy..Cheers!!

Y weren't u among the rest?

StEpPiNg InTo YeAr 2008

2008-01-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

HaPpY nEw Yr GuYs!!!
Parted w Yr 07 and here we are in Yr 08..
A brand new yr w lotsa mysteries laying ahead.

Yr 07 has been a monotonous one for me..
Nth much excite me throughout the yr..
i have been an on-looker of this constantly changing world
neglecting my life n everything else..
Been feeling lonely most of the time..
is my existence really tt insignificant? i kp asking myself
Took a step back and look at myself..
i'm still the same old me..
Yr 07 is a self-reflecting yr..
the focus of my life for these few yrs has alw been wrong..
actually all the while i noe it's wrong..
bt a lot of things once become a habit, it's hard to change
will try to steer my life n make my focus rite..
i'm sure i will succeed one day..
i guess i have finally found myself in Yr 07...
if u ask me wat kind of person am i now, i can give u an ans
tt's the greatest achievement i've made..

yr 07 is quite a bitter yr for me..
had 2 surgeries in a yr..
my family has really been by my side all these while..
tt's wen i nd care n concern the most..
for tt, i swear i'll love my family more den ever!!
i noe u all are the dearest to me!!
thks to frenz who have been encouraging me too..
i will rem tt..

Oh ya!!Misfortune have been befalling on my family for yrs..
could all these stop??
i think it's enuff alr ba..
we have been tolerating these yr after yr...
think everything has its own limit ba.
Pls...let 2008 be a more decent yr for us k??
thks so much!!

Hee..sry ah..think i sound quite serious..
bt i think summary of a yr ought to be serious..
at least tt shows i'm serious over wat i said?
it's nt a badinage afterall..
ok!!i hope 2008 will be a better yr for everyone!!
May all my loved ones be blessed!!:)

意义十足的圣诞

2007-12-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

当父母与孩子有争执时，总会是身为孩子的先败下阵来。
在这居家欢腾的平安夜与圣诞节里，我家就刚好上映了一部类似的争执。
而我，就是这争执里的主角。是衰的咯！
但是，我承认此争执的错在于我。
代价就是两大节日我只能孤独地度过，
家里也闹得鸡犬不宁，我也万分之内疚。
有一点我不懂，面对我愧对的朋友时，我能很坦然地说出对不起，
但为何面对自己亲爱的母亲时，总是需要经过一番内心的挣扎才能说出那三个字呢?
我不断地告诉自己，
男子汉，犯错了，就得有勇于认错的勇气。
其实认错比犯错更需要勇气。
有认错的机会已是上天给予我们最宽容的裁决。
很庆幸我终于说了，结束了这26 小时的争执。
哈! 我以我自己为豪，以我能克服以往的任性为荣。
在这起事件里我体会了很多。
我深深体会我们生活的每一个细节都有家人的影子存在。
你们可曾想过如果有一天失去他们时的感觉？
我亲身体会了，
非常彷徨，无比的不知所措。
我很幸运，能再次拥有我的温暖家庭。
失去过才更会懂得珍惜。
我的圣诞虽然孤独，但这么多年来是最有意义的一个。不是吗？
非常感激那些问候我的朋友，让孤独的我得到一丝丝的暖意！：）

充满悔意的平安夜

2007-12-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

充满悔意的平安夜

有时冷静的坐下来深思
人一生争来争去到底是为了什么？
为了争取那一丝的自由，又会伤害多少你打从心底疼爱的亲人。
被你最爱最信任的人伤害是最痛苦的。
虽然那可能是无心的伤害，但已足以使对方痛不欲生。
再强硬的汉子也会因已寒得颤抖的心而流下悔意的泪珠。
没想到会在这充满欢乐与祝福的平安夜体验这一切。
冬天果然会给人格外孤独的感觉。
受了伤的心要何时才能愈合？
只想借助今晚的夜光，告诉伤我与我伤的人, 对不起。
21 年来的我并没有改变，再多几个21 年也始终如一，
爱我与我爱的你。
祝所有我身旁的人圣诞节快乐!!

Sweep Sweep Sweep!!

2007-11-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sweep Sweep Sweep!!
Shoo all the spiderwebs!!
hee..this place is damn dusty..
nobody care abt it for so long liao..
ps ah..really lazy to blog..
guess nobody will read this blog le ba..hee..
no one even bother to tok to the blog le..haiz..haha!!

ok..nt much updates anyway, life has been really slack for me..
is all abt gg physiotherapy n gg back home..damn no life lo..
bt den the physio really helps..my leg is getting better le.
3 wks ago, the strength of the operated leg was tested.
it was juz 17.4% of the other leg la..
i'm so proud to break the record of all those who have went thru this surgery thus far.
no one has the result as cui as mine..
very sad sia..though i act as if i dun care at the physiocentre.
therapist explained that it is due to my multiple injuries be4 my op.
now den i noe all the fells in the past one yr does matters..
nvm..the strength will be tested again in 3 wks time..
wish me luck n hope tt i will improve drastically..

Oh ya!!my bro has graduated!!
went to attend his grad ceremony few wks back..
I would say the feeling of graduation is really nice!!
no more studying!!no more lectures!!no more homework!!WOO!!!
bt den u gotta start the life of working n adapting to office politics..
haiz..life can nv be perfect cant it?haha..

i guess the recent dragonboat incident has been a concern to all of us.
can i say it's a tragedy??
bt it's definitely losses of talents of the nation..
they are juz youngsters who are ard our age..
life just starts to get more interesting..
haiz...天妒英才..i'm sure that they are all elites.
all Singaporeans will be proud of them no matter where they are.
Thanks so much for representing us..
My condolences to all the family members of these elites...

Take Care...

Heart-breaks..painful..

2007-10-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

I guess there's a curse casted on my campmates..
3 of them are in depression due to probs in r/s..
i can almost feel the pain tt they are gg thru now..
it's really heart-piercing...
which kind of pain can be worse den tt?
a pain w/o painkiller...
In all 3 cases, the guys are the ones who still have the girls in their heart.
shld i say it's rare??
bt it juz happened..happened at the same time...

I've learnt a lesson also...
stm wen things are nt clear, it may nt be gd to clarify..
no doubt tt ur heart will constantly pursue to noe the ans..
bt the ans may nt be desirable..
it may juz hurt u more..

Guys..pls treat ur gf well if u really love them.
show them the care n concern plus most imptly, the necessary attention.
Wen the girls decided to cease ur chance to shower them w love, at least u wun have any regrets.
Chances dun come easy..wen lost, it's nt gg to appear again..

Life has been boring at hm...
hope such life will end real fast..
my leg is healing well..
took away the stitch on the past thur..
shocked to noe there's one part of the wound tt has nt been closed up wen i reached hm..
trying to apply medicine on my own n hope it will heal quickly..
alrite..recuperation in progress..
shall update again soon..take care!!

Post-surgery

2007-09-30T00:08:00.000+08:00

Mission accomplished...
Had my knee operated n ligament re-constructed..
Although this surgery is so much more complicated den the 1st one..
the process is so much faster den i expected...
dun really rem much abt wat has happened in the OT.
the anaesthetist injected duno wat soln into me..
after tt i'm like floating ard..damn drowsy..haha..
i rem they asked me qns..bt i dun rem wat i answered them..
guess i muz have replied sum craps or wat...haha..malu man..
i juz hope wat i said are english n nt sum alien language..
Now, my only worry is tt the new ligament is nt strong.
my surgeon told me the graft they obtained frm my hamstring is considered quite thin for a person of my size.
Wen i heard tt i sian diao..so means i still muz be careful in future ma..
i tot i can start flying or jump frm building to building le..haiz..

Just wanna say thks to those who r concern abt me..
yes..i'm alrite le..thks a lot!!!
nw den i noe post-surgery care is even more intolerable..
the heavy brace has to be worn at all times except wen bathing..
it is to ensure my leg is kept straight..
the wound has nt healed n the weight is acting on it...
stm i really wonder who invented this brace...
it's gg to be part of me for 6 wks summore..argh!!!
Oh ya..it's still painful at this pt of time..bt dun worry..manageable..
luckily this time rd the painkiller work..
it's either i kill the pain or the pain kill me...
the war is still on-going....wuahahhahaha..

Liang Geng visited me today...
msg frm kenneth abt the change of date only reached him wen he reached boon lay..
so he came w/o the rest of the 3 who agreed to visit me tog..
so stunned to receive his call saying he's alr at boon lay le..how??
the poor guy travelled all the way from toa payoh n felt so lost...
made me feel rather bad towards him..
has to trouble my parents to fetch him frm station ctrl..
he kept me company for the whole afternoon...
i felt so grateful..
he's really sumone w vast knowledge..guess i gotta learn more frm him..

Sincerely hope my loved ones will be blessed n stay happy everyday!

Contented Day

2007-09-25T23:32:00.005+08:00

It's only half an hr more to 26th Sept 07.
A day tt i've been looking up for but dun wan it to cum.
I guess i have gathered enuff courage to face it.
It's just a surgery..i think i have thought too much..
Just face it like a man..it isn't tt difficult afterall.
Jiayou!!Jiayou!!Jiayou!!
It's absolutely a contented day tt i had.
Packed my room tt has been left in a mess for sum time.
I really have to admit tt i'm damn lazy..
Slping in a pig sty everyday n i still can tolerate.haha..
But den frankly, packing my rm isn't an easy chore.
Half of my rm is like storerm for my family..
2 beds in my rm leh..wen there's only me slping in it..
trying hard to kp the other half of my rm as neat as i can..
a lot of memories once again flashed back in my mind wen i tidy my drawers..
found a lot of stuff tt i have been looking for a long time..
Digged out a CD-CASE which is the graduation gift D4 made in sec 4.
Did anyone of u still rem that case?
It wrote "Best Wishes" in glitter glue on one side and the faces of the 4 of us drawn on the other.
it's close to 4 yrs since we graduate frm sec sch le..
bt a lot of things seem to have juz happened yday..
tt's the power memory can give..bring us back thru time..
Found a foto album also..with our graduation fotos taken at Pasir ris park, Suntec n Changi Airport..
Y din we do the same for our JC graduation? Miss 04S29..
With much effort, finally created a wider path..hope it's sufficient for me w 2 crutches.

Chat with an old fren for quite sum time..
Confide quite a bit in her..felt so much better..Thks.
I believe i'm the type tt nds to tok to feel better..EH!!Am i talkative??haha!!The word dun sound quite right..bt a pair of listening ears does create wonder in me..
Met up w sum frenz also..though it's a short one..
Somehow my mood turned down again..
searched my soul bt i feel it's nt due to the surgery...
wat can it be man?
Could it be juz becos i'm tired?
Gotta force myself to bed..Yuck!!I dun like it...
Tc Everyone!!Will update again after my surgery...Till Then.

Last working day before 2nd surgery

2007-09-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

Yday was my last working day before my 2nd surgery..
Has taken leave for today, mon n tues...
i guess i really nd the time wen i can still walk to settle my personal stuff.
My mentality is so funny...
I actually feel sad to leave tt office of mine yday..
I tot i was so tired of army n wanted a break?
Y did i start missing my wkplace even be4 my MC starts?
Took a last glance at my office be4 i walked out...feels so weird..
bt it's nt as if i alr ORD-ed..i'm gg back again ah..
wat's tt feeling for man?? I'm such a weirdo..
Mayb i'm juz sad to leave my army pals...
esp those who are gg to ORD in DEC.
Ppl like Kengy, Liang Geng, Ghim Hock and so on..
wen i return frm my MC, they wun be ard le..
They r really the ones that have left their footsteps in my army life.
Appreciate their accompliment..cant bear to lose their existence.
Feel so bad towards my partner, FADHLI as well.
He was left alone to handle all the admin work.
Luckily it's juz another 2 mths for him to bear..
Hope there's a replacement to help him out soon..
will only c him wen we get our IC tog..
tt's the day we both r looking forward to. YEAH!!
hopefully both of us will then return with a heathy arm n leg.

Life goes on though there's a lot of she bu de.
We have to crave our individual path eventually.
we promised to kp in contact...
there's a doubt if all of us will rem..
bt i rather choose to believe all of us will...

Updates

2007-09-18T13:23:00.001+08:00

It has been a mth since i last blogged. Tt's fast man.
1 more week to my ligament re-construction..
how shld i describe my feeling now?
i'm feeling lousy i guess..
have been reading a lot on the upcoming surgery..
what made me feel consoled is the high success rate of the surgery.
However, the complexity of the process turns me off.
Do i really have to go thru it?
I really despise the fear i'm having..
Din i promised myself tt i will face it with courage?
Yes. i did..bt i duno wat's pulling me back..
Maybe i just cant find the courage tt was lost long ago.
May the god be blessing me..i really nd it..
It will be over soon rite?
Ha..n guess wat?
The greatest motivation now is tt after the surgery,
i can exercise n slim down!!
Nv know tt being fat can be encouraging too..ha!!
Blessing in Disguise

Updates and Mics Gathering

2007-08-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

Life now has been quite okay..
NDP has ended!!!Yeah!!!Happy Bday Singapore!!
So glad it is a success!!bt has NDP ever fail before??Sound so crappy. ha!
Nv regret to be part of it. Part of this City Of Possibilities.
Most importantly, my weekends are free again!!!Woo!!
army also nt as hectic liao. The pace has slowed down..
hopefully will have more rest n more enjoyment up ahead!!

Went out with Mic w stanley, Chieu Hooi, Shuyi and Shan today.
Had lunch and a movie tog.
All are old sec sch frenz. Miss the times eh. it has been so enjoyable.
So co-incidentally, all of us sit in the same column in class.
Sad man..shan n chieu dun rem me sitting in the same column as them.
So does tt means i'm slim during sec sch?
haha..ok..i shall stop dreaming again.
I enjoyed this gathering pals.
Thanks for making the day!!

Rush Hr 3 and Secret

2007-08-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo!!!Had a great and satisfying day!!
Watched Rush Hour 3 and finally, the long-waited Secret.

Rush Hour 3 is really a great comedy.
Chris Tucker and Jackie Chan have shown marvellous partnership once again.
The whole threate nv fails to get amused by them.
Esp Chris Tucker, he is really a successful comedy actor.
The way he tok and the action he made..
it's all enuff for u to broke into laughter.
Rem!Nv say u dun like Americans.
They may just resort to ways to force u sing their national antheme.ha!
As for Jackie, still impressed by his action-pack.
jump from buildings, flying over walls, charging a high-moving vehicle....
none of these ever hindered him before.
However, i was quite disappointed w him in this show.
mayb i was just expecting more frm him.
Overall, it's still a nice show!!Must watch!

After a good laugh, nxt will be Secret.
We have been waiting to watch this show for a long time.
the show really worth the waiting man..
Nice nice nice!!!
The whole storyline is very well-written and planned.
throughout the story, it keeps on keeping me in suspend.
Some parts of the story were kept unscreened at 1st.
The flashback at the last part reveal the whole story.
The story is indeed beautiful and sweet.
Bring me back to becum a baby will u?
Do i 1st have to becum a pianist?haha!!
Guessed many ppl have watched le..
For those who haven watched, faster go watch!!U wun regret!!

Both different type of movies are similar in one way.
Tt is they are NICE!!!
One is comedy, the other is romance and sweet.
Which do you prefer?

2007-07-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

Updates!!Updates!!
Been very bz recently.. normally reach hm jiu slp liao
haha..no life rite?
lack of slp man!!Gosh!suffer frm brain dead for quite sum time liao.ha!
luckily i dun have NDP duty for these 2 wks.
can take a break n enjoy my saturday!!Yeah!!

Watched harry potter on the past fri w dil, shuyi n pong.
still nice like the past 4 episodes..
however, i still prefer the past epidodes
duno issit becos i'm too tired liao..the eyes could nt take the bright screen..
like kp wan to close liddat.
guess i got catch all the nice parts ba..
if there's a chance, i wan to watch the show again!!haha!!

Kenneth suggested HQ chalet today.
seems tempting sia...it has been a long time since i go chalet le.
summore it's a all guys chalet!!haha..
sounds gay eh..bt i guess will be more liberal?haha!!
juz hope we can get the chalet..if nt a simple outing will be gd also..

confused..y do ppl gets irritated so easily nowadays?shall kp quiet frm nw on..

Back in Camp

2007-06-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since my last update.
Yep!!has returned to camp le...2 wks alr..
after returning to camp, dun really have time to cum online le
duno y, army dun seems as fun to me as compared to the past.
i used to look forward to go camp everyday...
even wen i'm on MC, i wanted to go back n c c look look.
bt after my return, i dun really look forward le.
mayb is becos many things have changed.
A lot of the familiar faces are no longer there.
bt there's one face tt i hate to c is still there!!haha..

Everyday i only have abt 4-5 hrs of slp.
so worn out till can fall aslp wenever i sit dwn.
nevertheless, tireness is nt a reason well enuff to deny responsibilities.
these responsibilities seem so wide n heavy still..
my job is to serve everyone in my MTL.
Wenever there's personnel looking for me, they expect me to do sumthing for them.
bt i could nt satisfy everyone immediately..
things dragged on n ppl lose their patient.
reminds me of the game" Diner Dash".haha!!
bt i have only a pair of hands. hw many things can i accomplish?
wat made it worse is the failing memory of mine.
i find it hard to recall things tt r tasked to me...
hate such feeling man..so nt organised..worrying of missing this n tt..
after much tot, i realised i have been giving favours to everyone tt approached me
in the end made myself so bz n worn out.
sum ppl even dun appreciate or shld i say dun understand..
tt's sad to say bt wat can i say?
ppl alw say it's my job..i have to do it..
suck thumb lo...everything in the MTL can be linked w admin..
so everything gotta do w me...i cant say it's nt my job...
even simple thingy like answering or making a call is my job.
i dun believe only clerk can do tt lo..it's the mentality tt matters ba..
stm sumthing can be done easily by urself, y wait for me to do it for u?
i really dun get it..
Everyone likes to push their wk ard..
i push to u, u push to me...
sum ppl even like to mark ppl's words...
superior tasked sumone the job, den the job is his job.
he die die also muz do the job..even if he's too bz for the job
wat abt the others? Chatting, playing games or slping
can there be more helpful ppl ard?
or issit the excuse for ppl to slack?
felt all these from camp...kinda disappointed..
i'm nt motivated to work..seriously...
However, once again, all these r nt excuses to deny my responsibilities..
Can all these improve? As least be4 i ORD
i wan to leave the place w fond memory..n nt all these craps.

Hope alw arises wen it's dying

2007-06-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

Stm i really admire u...
u r juz so ordinary only..
bt u can create magic...
u alw manage to save a dying heart at the 11th hr.
create tt little spark before i froze to death.
is this the way we kp everything gg?
hw long more can tt last??
will i ever feel like dying again?
u made the call..i bear the consequence..
tt's scary..
back to camp tmr liao..
feel so sianz..hope life still goes on well..
take care everyone!!

Last Day of MC

2007-06-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

<<:0>>The long break is cuming to an end liao..
Shld i use the word "finally"?
haha..i doubt so la..
no one will reject more breaks rite??
slack for so long le..really turned into lazy bone le..Ops!!
hopfully i can adjust back soon..
foresee i will be very bz again after i get back to camp...
despite tt, hope i can go out n have fun too!!!
bt are my wkends still intact?boO!!!sianz...ha
juz wanna crap a bit..
shuhui is cuming back n shuxian flying off liao...
one for one exchange eh!!haha...
no matter wat..will miss everybody!!Do take care!!

Would You Be There

2007-06-02T03:22:00.001+08:00

Would You Be There- Redwan Ali
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there..

Enjoy The Song!!!

何谓爱情？

2007-06-02T02:53:00.000+08:00

何谓爱情？
爱情是因爱而生情。
换句话说，爱应当先诞生才会有情感的抒发。
获得两者后才谈得上是爱情。
什么又是爱呢？
爱是彻彻底底地付出，把心交给了对方。
当对方说什么或做什么时会影响到你。
知道有危险时会设身处地地为他着想。
时时为他感到忐忑不安。
但高兴时你获得的喜悦也不逊色于他本人。

有了这才会有情感的抒发。
想为他做些什么。
例如时时想着他，看到什么都想买给他/告诉他。
但许多人都把情感的抒发当成了爱情。
其实不然，那可能只是一刹那的错觉。
没爱的感情是不会永恒与长久的。

每段真诚的爱情都是付出真心的。
付出时就想是个无底洞，永远都不觉得付出得足够。
当察觉时已来不及了。
如果这些付出有回报还好。
不然就不得了了。
悲伤，难过，痛心等等的字眼将如排山倒海般的反应在那人身上。
许多人因此一蹶不振，天天以泪洗脸。

要一个人死心并非是件容易的事
不是说说劝劝就能达成目的。
我相信每个人对另一个人一开始时总是有100% 的信任与信心。
有了爱情并不会改变这点，只不过是比较牢固地守着这100%。
每当一个人令另一个绝望/失望，这100% 就会削落。
当然，有许多因素会影响这100% 的起落。
而死心的意思就是当这100% 变成零的时候。
所以，当情侣们对彼此死心了，友谊也很难在继续了。
不过万事都有例外，这需要彼此的努力了。

忽然我领悟了这个道理，心痛也不是一件坏事。
那表示你离死心不远了。
不好意思，废话很多。
只是我的一些想法。想把它写下来。
若另有意见，请多原谅！！

抱歉！不是我不想与你作伴。只是我不喜欢那种心痛的感觉。请你谅解。

幸福双人床

2007-05-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

八频道九点党的幸福双人床已来到了尾声。
超喜欢这部连续剧，为甚么这么快就结束了？
我想好的东西往往都在我们不知不觉时悄悄地离我们而去吧。
戏里有许多知识是值得我们学习和试着去理解的。
男人与女人的不同，思想的差异，总会造成误会。
幸福因此插身而过。
说到幸福，幸福的定义又是什么呢？
对我而言，简单就是一种幸福！
今天在前往医院的途中看见一对年老夫妇过着马路。
阿公牵着阿嬷的手，领导着她过着繁忙的十字路口。
我不禁露出微笑，这一幕就是幸福！！
无需伪装，不必作假，完完全全发自内心的幸福。
有多可贵啊！
把时间调整到几百年前，当人类最原始的时代，
没有科技，没有高楼大厦，不需要读书，人人平等
住在小草屋，靠着打猎为生
没有尔虞我诈，更不会有勾心斗角
那时的生活，虽然简朴，但始终比如今的生活幸福百倍。
也许会有人觉得我很没出息，如此的不求上进
但套一句人家常说的话，人死了无论你生前有多风光，带走的也都是四片木板。
多年后也都化为乌有，有什么好争的？
只有活着时的数十载过得幸福愉快，才不算妄活。

这几天不断的听到人与人要在茫茫人海中遇见，是要多少的缘分这句话。
我不禁开始想起我生边的人。
其实我们常在不留意时乎列了许多关心我们的人。
这些人的存在不是偶然，他们更加不是多余。
我学会不要把人家的关心当成理所当然。
幸福是可遇而不可求的。
有时幸福可能就糊涂时溜走了。
戏里的人都很幸运。还能找回已溜走的幸福。
我们有何常能够如此幸运呢？
超喜欢主题曲里的其中一句话：幸福双人床要两个人才温软。

其实我有多么的在乎你。。你又何曾知道？

Bad news frm camp, Kboxing..

2007-05-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

Received a call from the guy i detest most in my camp...
asked a lot abt my surgery n stuff...
makes me wonder wat happened man!!
called my frenz to ask abt it...
astonished to find out i mite be posting out!!
Omg!!it's nt a gd news man!!
Although i alw say this camp sux n stuff...
i'm alr used to the camp..since i passed out frm tekong, i'm there le.
The surrounding, my frenz, the commanders..i'm alr familiar w le..
suddenly i nd to adapt in another environment again..
Just the tot of it alr sux liao...
let's hope all these r nt true ba..pls let it be juz a rumour..

Went kbox w sharon n gang...
it's the 1st time i feel the whole rm is so eerie...haha!!
sum songs they sing is really like those ghost movie de song..ha!!
we sang hokkien songs also!!Eileen is definitely a gd partner for tt!!ha!
In the laz one hr, we sang a lot of old folk's songs!!nice nice!!!
It's gd to be able to listen to these songs again!!
All of us were really worn out at the end ba..ha!!
High until we tired man..hope everybody enjoyed themselves!!

..........from me to u

Bz recently...

2007-05-23T00:47:00.000+08:00

I have been bz these few days trying to clear up my hse..

haiz..so many things la..really have headache wen i c them.

wat made it worse is many things cant be disposed.

argh!!!really duno how to tidy man..
i guess i nd one more hse..haha!!

Was tidying up my stuff yesterday..

came across a lot of things that brot back a lot of memories..

I found 4/4 sports day foto!!!life den is so great man!!

also found lanbo's departure foto at airport

all of us look so young den..now everyone has changed..

The 2 fotos below are the grp fotos for 2 diff event.

i also found some letters from frenz..

reminded me of the times wen we kp spanning letters during cls.

our wishes in our letters for the cls test during the nxt period.ha!

omg!!i want to be a student still!!haha..

However, i saw my past homeworks which is alw like a huge red sea.ha.

top right hand side alw has the remark : Incomplete!!!

haa..i guess i was a very irresponsible student ba..haiz...

sad to admit tt ugly fact...

i digged out a lot of O-level papers that are not done.

as compared, those nt done is more den those were done..

argh!!Y am i so lazy??!!haha...

anyone who nds these papers pls approach me k?

Whatever subject i also have...

chem..maths...a-maths...phy...omg!!too many le..

din wan to throw them away cos i think they r of use ba..

i've let them down...let others make it up to use them ba..

please let me noe if anyone nds them k??haha..

Will continue to find out more things hidden in my hse!!

wan to noe wat treasure i will find??

STAY TUNE!!haha!!

Shuhui leaving for France!!

2007-05-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

Coco Lee - Before I Fall In Love

My heart, says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what i want to see
Or, is it true, could you really be

Chorus
Something to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at, the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please, give me a reason to believe
Say, you're the one, that you'll always be

Chorus
It's been so hard for me to give my heart away
But I would give my everything , Just to hear you say
Chorus

The lyrics above is Coco's Before I Fall In Love.
I feel it's a very nice song. I noe this song since very young.
It nv fails to touch me even till this date.
The lyrics make sense too!!
It's sumthing we nd to noe before we fall in love..
Do you noe?? haha!!Enjoy the song!!

Shuhui has left for France this morning.
One more gd fren who left us for the time being..
Luckily her trip is shorter...
Sincerely hope she has a fun n safe trip!!!
Wen can i leave this country as well?
Looking forward.......

2007-05-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

Heard the news of the causalties due to the fighter plane tragedy..
Haiz..so unpredictable isn't it??
Juz went for overseas attachement only jiu din cum back le..
I'm refering to the 2 soldiers that sacrified..
My mum said the funeral is grand..bt can they c??haiz...
their mum must be heart-broken..
it's mother's day today n they have to bear the pain of losing their sons.

It makes me wanna appreciate time w my family even more..
Wat can be worse den the parting into two different world?
There's no book out there..neither can u send email or msn or sms or call...
i guess the only mean of communication is thru dream ba..
all parents meant well for their childern..
The only weakness is the inability to communicate properly w them.
they wan us to work hard..they wan us to be successful..
望子成龙愿女成凤 is every parent's wish...
misunderstanding alw occur wen ideas n tots r presented harshly..
alw have to compromise..tt's wat keeps a family gg!!
It's mothers's say as i have said earlier..
HaPpY MoThErs' DaY to All Mummies!!!
You all r great!!W/o u all, we will nv exist!!!
Dun worry guys..i'm alrite le..thks!!

2007-05-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

Celebrated a belated bday for Shuhui today at JP.
It’s just a simple celebration..I hope my dear mei dun mind..hee..
Kor will buy u a big cake for ur nxt yr’s bday k??!!
All the bez for your trip to France.
Promise you will take care of urself k? nt forgetting to have fun too!!
I think “Sumone Else” will nag at u regarding this again.
So I have no worries!!
Hee…Bring him to mit us up soon k?? I think I will have gd chat w him!!ha..
Sry for nt being able to change the colour of my context..blogger got prob sia!!

2007-05-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

After 3 weeks and more, i finally stepped back into my camp.
The long rest made me lose my discipline as a soldier i think.
i actually brought my camera fone..haha
spent ard 3 hrs in the medical centre waiting for my turn..
the medical officer seems to be bz seeing other patients...
bt i come before them leh!!!
wat my fren said is true..ppl haven got their permit to slack..
since i got it le..wat else shld i complain abt?ha..
however, the length of my 2nd mc still cant be confirmed..
my fate lies in the hands of the medical board..
duno wen den i'll noe the ans. Boo!!dun care la..enjoy 1st!!ha!!
Oh ya!!nt forgetting to thks camp mates for the cao geng song.
Esp the special platoon guys..u guys nv fails to cheer me up!!
HQ guys too!!bt u all r better..at least din scold me cao geng!!hee.
Too bad many ppl gg to ORD.the MTL is gg to becum more quiet.
Hope i'll be back w u guys soon!!(Alamak!!contradiciting sia!!haha)

meishan is leaving this lovely hometown in a few hrs time..
travelling so far to an unfamiliar place, USA.
kinda worried for her..
Will she be kidnapped by the cowboys there?
please dun luff at them, noeing tt they r impotent!!haha!!!
hope she kp her promise to take care of herself!!
will be looking forward to her return..
omg!!start to miss her le..even before she went off..
lotsa more frenz gg oversea..
i'm getting lonely..

anticipating a few outings cuming up..
so excited!!
u can say i cao geng or i greedy..
i look forward to more fun during my MC!!
after my MC think i'll be very bz ba..
let me enjoy be4 i go back ba....
more programs please!!!
bt i hope nth hinders any outings!!!
ka-kun-cup!!!

Spidey Review plus MC extension

2007-05-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

Watched Spidey recently..An excellent movie!!!
I fall in love with the show without even watching the 1st 2 episodes.
It's a battle between the good and the evil!!
like wat is expected, evil will nv win...
bt at the sacrifice of the good as well..
i guess Harry din die w regret ba..
at least he managed to find out the truth of his dad's death.
i despise his dad man!!Cant win ppl still wan son to revenge for him
use the bluff method summore lo..lousy fellow.
I think he got no face to c his son now!!!
His son's face also half-gone..tt's sad..wat a handsome he had previously.
i will nt elaborate more..
a lot of ppl's blog got summary liao!!haha..
nice show!!tt's wat i wan to say...

Went to see my specialist today...
Got a shock of my life...
he actually feel i shld extend my MC...

This is wat he say,"You dun tell me u wan to go back to ur camp liddat?
unless u insist, den i got nth to say...if nt come back in another 6 wks..
in the mean time, u will be on MC."

Wah..wat a nice doc i have eh?haha..stm i really love him..
everybody who noe i got 6 wks more sure say,"wah!!!"
Bt dun think he anyhow give one k?
He has his professional point of view....
he feels i shld build up my knee muscles be4 i go back...
becos my ligament is torn..it's rather dangerous...
haiz..although my condition is sucky..luckily i have a gd doc..
I noe i wun get the full of these 6 wks of MC la..
C how my Army MO wans to cut short the MC lo..
sian..hope i still can get at least 2 wks..please!!!haha..
holidays continue...yeah!!!

Do i look like gay?

2007-04-23T15:48:00.000+08:00

Days at hm are really boring!!!
it is great for nt required to report to camp...
dun have to wake up early in the morning...
dun have to squeeze bus n train at the end of wk..
Envy??haha..bt trust me....
days like this is so boring...i rather go camp...
finally i feel i can trust my leg to bring me around le..
i guess i can "do sumthing to cure my boredom le".ha.SHH!!

today i was playing pool online in the afternoon.
chatted w my opponent who is frm texas...
crazy fellow!!!i regretted playing w him man...
He kp saying i'm gay la!!!jidan gao!!
esp after he noes i'm serving in army!!
i said, so all guys in Singapore are gays?
he replied that he dun mean all the ppl in army r gays..only sum..
bt y me????!!!!!
which part of my conversation sound like gay??
he said he's nt gay n kp asking me to admit i'm gay!!
WAT THE HELL!!!Stupid guy!!!Crazy de!!!ARGH!!!
I get really pissed as the conversation goes on...
he sensed tt n said he's actually kidding n gtg...
cant stand him man!!!
Hey..do i look like a gay??

ShuXian!!!!
HaPpY 20TH BiRtHdAy k???!!!
haha..paiseh eh...
hope u managed to enjoy ur bday also while mugging eh..
enjoy after ur exams ba..30th rite?7 more days..v.fast de!!

Post-Surgery

2007-04-13T01:13:00.001+08:00

Hey!Dun worry for those who have been concerning abt me...
I have successfully gone thru the scope..
Discharged this afternoon at ard 1.00pm...
It's a really gd experience i muz say...

Sum ppl asked me if i was scare...
ha..the ans is OF COS!!!haha...
wen i reached there i reported to the day-surgery registration.
i worked in AH be4..i tot i'll be using the day surgery OT.
if used tt still nt tt scary..cos the equipment for day surgery nt tt kua zhang..
i waited very long until the nurse finally told me the OT has been prepared n wan me to follow her..
i asked which OT i gg...she said i will be using Major OT..
OMG!!!i really freaked out man..tt's for those major surgery..
the nurse tried to explain becos day surgery OT have all been used for dental surgery..
I guessed she juz trying to calm me down ba..haha..
the walk to the Major OT is really the most terrible trip i ever made in AH.
on the way i saw my ex-colleague..stop to tok for a while which made me feel better..
Our walk finally stopped outside the Operating Threate..
My parents n bro were stopped becos only patient was allowed to go into the OT.
The door of the OT opened n i walked in..I dun rem i turning back to look at my parents.
I scare i will suddenly say i dun wan to op le!!haha...
In there..really scary..got 2 patients awaiting for their surgery..(both r indians)
Got one surgeon actually asked one of the indian how many days of MC he wanted..
looking at the blur face of tt indian i broke into laughter..to think i still can luff at tt pt of time..ha.
beds were pushed out n those indians were pushed in to have their surgery le..
my wait is a long one becos my surgeon is operating on another patient..
while waiting, i chatted w the nurses in the OT..
i guessed i asked a lot of qns..ask until they duno how to ans me..
I'm simply too curious abt surgery le..they can c i'm nervous ba i guess..ha..
My turn finally arrived!!My bed was pushed out le..scared sia!!
there's this nurse who is very blur la!!even got the date wrong leh..
kp saying it's 12th apr wen it's actually 11th.
i cant imagine she's the one pushing me into where my knee is gg to be cut up.
i was pushed to a waiting rm..where they fixed the drip on me and checked my pulse..
initially, i tot tt's where i'll be operated..
felt quite relief cos the rm dun seem to be really scary...
after tt den i found out it's nt the place!!!another door opened..i took a glance into the rm..
I was so scared la!!the typical operating threate we saw on tv!!
The walls are made of metal..the coldish look!!OMG!!!
tt blur nurse like kp making mistakes la..kp apologising to me..
i still calm her down leh..ask her dun be so nervous!!wuahahah...
i asked her scare nt..she said normally they ask the patients nt to be scare, bt they themselves r nervous too..haha..
bt she quite nice la..give me warmer knowing i'm feeling cold n shivering..
toking to her calm me down a lot...thanks so much!!!
my surgeon came n tok to me also. explaining wat's gg to be done for this op.
after tt i was pushed into the coldish threate...
wat i can rem is i was tranferred to the operating table..
they pasted a lot things onto me..n i rem hearing them saying wat muz break their 20 mins record timing..i guess is the preparation which includes putting me to slp ba..
they let me breathe in oxygen using the mask which nearly suffocate me i feel..
oxygen is actually so smelly de ah...
a while ltr i dun rem a thing le..wen i wake up i was back at the waiting area...
The nurse told me the surgery is over le..it's abt 3 hrs later ba...
once again..waited very long cos my heartbeat cannot calm down!!!
it's beating at 110-120 counts every min leh...
they asked me to calm down...bt i dun feel myself very nervous or wat leh..
i think my heart at tt time dun listen to my order liao..haha..
drank sum hot milo cos i was shivering..too cold le..
tt's the 1st time i feel milo is so delicious!!haha..it quenched my thirst also!!so gd lo...
they waited for half an hr my heartbeat could nt slow down..
finally they decided nt to wait n pushed me to my ward..

tt's the whole process of my surgery..wat u all feel??scary??haha..it's up to u all to decide le..
i'm glad i successfully went thru all these n can still joke along the way..haha..
Sry for this lengthy entry..i juz typed on n on..nt knowing i type so much le!!haha..tc!!

Surgery Ahead

2007-04-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for sometimes le..
nt knowing wat to blog is the reason..
I was quite occupied with army stuffs recently..
Range...course..n so many things...
times in camp is nv sufficient to finish my work..
it makes me really drained up at the end of my day..
often left me with nt much energy to think of any other things.

This morning i suddenly felt i'm so blessed..
i wore my uniform and prayed hard towards the sky..
I thank god for giving me wat i owned!!
My wonderful family...my fantastic frenz tt always care for me..
the opportunity tt i've got to grow so fat n big..
the chance for me to kp on pursueing my studies..
my life tt does not contain any worries abt the survival for the nxt day.

Humans often gets too greedy to realise how blessed were were.
we always ask for improvement..seek for achievement...
if we failed, we end up with disappointment..
felt sad..demoralise..feel like dying...thinking there will be no tmr...

Wen we pray to god..we often ask for better tmr...
ask for gd results..ask to strike 4D...
if the outcome is unfavourable...
we will blame god for nt blessing us..blame this blame tt...

We are all actually affected by magic of greed...
in greed...we dun seem to be satisfied...
in greed...we dun c wat we gained but wat we lost...
in greed...we dun look at past achievements but wat we failed to achieve.
in greed...we take watever we have now for-granted!!!

this morning i felt i'm really greed-free!!!n i'm so blessed!!
it is such a marvallous feeling!!!so wonderful...

how gd will it be if we r able to feel blessed everyday...
bt will tt stop us frm improving ourselves?
let's hope nt ba...
i muz learn to be self-satisfying...yes!!

tmr is my surgery le.. in 12 hours time i'll be in hospital alr...
i dun wan to deny i'm nervous..
neither do i wan to act brave...
i do have my worries..
start to have imaginations for this surgery...
i think i'm nt prepared for it ba...
bt i do nt have a choice le i guess...
i cant avoid it..so i nd to face it...
i have confidence i can handle it...
juz hope the pain after the surgery is nt too overwhelming..
pardon me if i'm nt myself for 1st few days after my surgery
i nd time to adjust...jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

Packed Wk...

2007-03-24T13:35:00.000+08:00

had a really busy n packed wk..
Kanna arrow to be part of the committee for COP.
it's an event for Transport Formation.
Worked so hard just to earn one miserable OFF.
ha..nt worth it leh..
bt it's enjoyable la..
A rare experience also..
managed to work with so many warrant officers..
tok to them like toking to frenz..
can joke ard and most imptly, they always treat me!!
Free ice-cream, free drinks....nt bad hor??hahaha!!!
Bt their pay so much more den mine.shld be ok la..ha

my knee failed me again yday...
guess i have been tiring it out these few days.
there r simply too much walking...
luckily this time rd i fall onto a chair...
it's wasn't tt bad la..
sat on the chair for half an hr unable to get up.
The pain is juz too intense for me to work against.
those ppl ard must be wondering y am i sitting dwn there a weird expression.
My warrants are all wondering y i go draw cable draw so long.
my walkie talkie is so noisy la..kp calling for me...
luckily i managed to hang on till the event is over..
after they knew abt me got injured..
all quite stunned..none knew i'm so fragile..
ya..i have been fragile for nearly a yr..am i getting used to it?
well..anyway, i am alrite le!!!

Today returned to camp kanna arrow again.
The conducting officer of my unit's combat shoot appointed me as his detail clerk.
wah!!!can i rest??i think i'm tired le la..
luckily the combat shoot is 2 wks away..i still have time to rest i hope.

wkends le..hope i will have an enjoyable ones..cheers!!!

等待的月台

2007-03-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

Xinyan introduced this soundclip to me sometimes ago.
I duno if u all have heard it before, but I found it quite touching.
What's true love?? This is true love ba..
But wen true love exist, where the hell is fate??
guess it is busy joking with the concerned.

Lyrics: (口白)火车站的候车室　时常坐著一位打扮整齐的中年妇人手里抱著一个老式皮箱　游目张望　似乎在期待什么第一次见到妇人是他高中的时候　每天夜里从桃园通车到台北补习深夜十一点回到桃园　妇人总是准时地坐在候车室的木椅上等待著的姿势　不安的眼神　端整的打扮　好像在等待著某一个约好的人起先他没有特别留意她　可是时间一久　尤其是没有旅客的时候妇人就格外显的孤寂　有一天他终于下定决心　在候车室等待那妇人离去一直到深夜落　一直到凌晨一点　妇人才站了起来走到候车室的黑板前用粉笔写著「水：等你没等到　我先走了！　英　留」那时他才知道　原来候车室长久以来的这则留言是出自那妇人后来车站的老人告诉他　妇人已经在候车室坐了二十几年了有人说她疯了　有人说曾看见她打开皮箱　箱里装的是少女时代的衣服大部分的人都说　在二十几年前那个夜晚　英和她的水约好在车站碰面要私奔到某一个不知名的地方　可是叫水的那个男人却缺席了有一天他回家的时候　不再看到英的影子　问了车站许多人但不知道为什么这风雨无阻的妇人那一天没有来　第二天的清晨英残缺的身体被发现在铁道上　皮箱滚到很远的地方旅客留言板上有她的字迹　只改了几个字「水：等你三十年　我先走了　英　留」
就这样　断了线　就真这样　不再相见飞出了时间　飞出天边　飞到另外一个　没有我的天经过许多年　所有的眷恋　飘浮在时空里　没有终点人生是一张　泛黄的相片　而我站在车站静止的画面

To listen to the song: http://www.sing8.com/ting.php?id=39699
If you want to know the whole story, go to the webbie below.
http://qiaorui.blogbus.com/logs/3616850.html
Poor 英....................

CNY 2

2007-02-26T14:05:00.000+08:00

It's already Chu 8 le..exactly one wk n one day of CNY le..
How's everyone's CNY??
got take lotsa angbao n have lotsa fun?
I did have lotsa fun!!Yeah!!though still nt satisfied!!

went dilys's hse the past fri..
it's sorta a gathering for great pals tt dun contact as often.
I feel i like the accompliment of these pals..
With them ard, outings are always fun n warmth..
We played poker, eat n drink...
It's the 1st time i drink tt much also..broke my own record.
The feeling is quite alrite..
juz a bit of headache n cant think properly..
I guess i'm nt drunk la..juz feel hot n face is red..
The pool after the drink disasterous..
Too throw face le..dun wan elaborate more le..ha..
Thks dilys for ur kind invitation again for this yr.
hApPy NeW yR to YoU n Ur FaMiLy!!!

Work starts again tmr. Full week of work man!!!
How am i gg to survive??Think i will be very shagged!
Wat's more awaits.................

CNY 2007

2007-02-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Yr everyone!!
Though it's Chu San alr...haha..
Two days of New yr break is coming to an end..
meaning tmr is wk again!!Argh..sianz...
Bt i feel celeb dun end here..
gg to enjoy a few more days of celeb in rest of
the CNY before i'm satisfied!!haha..
Din really do much hse visiting n stuffs this CNY.
It's unlike the usual CNY most of u r hafing.
Nevertheless, i enjoyed!!
Had a gambling session w some Nanhua guys laz nite.
it brings me to my attention how bad my luck is!!! Sian..
bt doesn't matter..enjoying the process is more impt.
I guess i have achieved tt..
Thks guys for providing such an entertaining nite!!

Went out w pong, meishan, shuyi, shuhui today..
Wanted to watch Juz Follow Law de..
Bt upon reaching the tix counter, the queue turned us off.
It's soooooooo long la..scary man...
The screen showed the tix is selling fast..we decided to give it a miss.
Oh ya!!Rose came too..rushed down specially to watch movie w us.
Thks jie!!In the end we had lunch tog instead..
After which, we went meishan's hse to play mahjong..
Her parents returned unexpectedly early..
Many of us r caught w no oranges to bai nian!!So funny..
Shuhui still borrowed oranges frm her cousin..ha!!!
In the end she earned 2 more oranges also..cute sia..
Left after play for a while for dinner...
I enjoyed the outing though we din do much la...
Wen will be our nxt outing?Start planning!!!haha...

Ok.shall stop here le..tmr is working le..means wake up at 4.50am again!
Wah..no more slping late..boring..
Anyway, hopefully can get OFF this fri!
Cya ard soon...take care everbody!!Avoid too much heaty food!!
DRINK MORE WATER!!!

Movie" Happy Bday"

2007-02-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

喂伟！！
亲爱的小米，我不想只是当你比好朋友还好的朋友，我希望你能嫁给我！在你每年的生日，能在你的身边陪你一同度过。我骗你是因为我不想看到你难过。虽然我已不能在你的身边，但我还是希望你快乐。你每年的生日我的影子仍然会在邮件中祝福你。 Hap-py Birth-day to you。。小米，我爱你。
小南

Watched the movie " Happy Birthday" today!! It's such a nice show!!Love it man!!
An annual wish is wat that keeps the love between a loving couple gg.
They were once tog..separate later..tot will make it tog eventually but din...
They were always separated in distant..but nv in heart n soul..
Many ppl may cum into their life in between..bt none succeed in taking over the place of the other..
Every yr they will juz wait for an email to assure themselves love still exist..
This love indeed carry on...
Till the end..It becums the lie still carry on..the lie that will secure this love of theirs for good.
It's sad at the end..but come to think of it..as long as they love each other, is it really tt impt if they r tog physically?
I guess only true love can give an ans to that ba..
anyway, nice show!!Haven watch faster go watch..gg to stop screening le i guess..
(the above paragraph in chinese is wat i compose k? Nth got to do w the show. Sumhow, i feel xiao nan will wan to tell xiao mi this.)

Doubting...

2007-02-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

Dunno y..i feel sumthing bad is happening behind my back..
The feeling is so strong man..pls dun let wat i imagine cums true.
The consequence will be very serious i swear..
In any way, i hope i can hear it frm u...
dun let me discover the truth frm any1 else...

Army life..

2007-01-27T08:25:00.000+08:00

OFF today...
As usual, disturbed by a fone call at 8am asking me go eat breakfast.
Argh!!Army frenz really gd at kajiaoing me..ha!
managed to get to slp again after the call.
slept for more den 12 hrs as i slept early laz nite too.
SHUANG!!!!Wuahahaha..

A lot of happenings in camp for the past 4 days.
2 of my camp mates were joking one day.
dunno y suddenly bu shuang each other...
den started shouting in office..
one of them even go n complain to warrant officer.
this made the other angry
He spilled out tt tt guy changed duty w sumone else w/o authorisation.
In the end tt guy n another innocent party kanna 3 X extra duties.
Childish rite?
Joking only ma..in the end kanna extra duties. lame sia..

The other clerk also another funny happening.
He go pester my warrant to promote him.
My warrant emailed my Mdm asking her to recommend him for tt.
My Mdm for nth called me up..
tok to me for very long telling me y she dun wish to promote him.
Lolx!!tell me for wat sia..i dun care lo..
I guess i will become a very gd listener after i ORD lo.
she replied my warrant abt her reluctance to promote him.
Wat's funny is the other clerk accidently read the mail.
read it even before my warrant saw the mail la..haha
n duno y another KPO officer noe abt the mail also..
He very KPO de..the whole company will noe abt it soon ba.
That clerk also very dumb..
noe ppl dun wan promote him le y still pester ppl.
Human beings r liddat ba...
Knew sumthing dun belongs to us but we still wanna try.
i'm as dumb as him, isn't it?

Last afternoon i received a call looking for tt clerk who is on duty.
Me: " Irvin! your call..looking for duty NCO."
Irvin: "Hi. Speaking NCO."
Me: " Wat the hell. NCO speaking la. Wat's speaking NCO?"
Yunus(one of my colleague): "oh..so he's the speaking NCO?"
The whole office broke into laughter and Irvin looked so blur.
I regret correcting him ma..make him so ps n i'm like so bad la..
but it's sumthing tt brighten up our afternoon la.

I'm really sry to make u bu shuang k?i'll start to learn to tok properly de..

happy bday to me 07

2007-01-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To mE!!!!oMg!!!20 yRs OlD le..

it's my bday again..it shows that i've been in this world for 2 decades le!!
20 yrs man..i have been wondering what have i accomplished within these 20 yrs.
Besides following the education trend moving thru pri, sec n jc,
n now also serving like wat others are doing,
frankly, i have nt done anything special..learn anything great leh.
it's really a bit wasting my life sia..
I guess i have to make changes to make my nxt decade more interesting!!
Yes!!tt's wat i wan!!ha!

Birthday wishes/ resolution? Ya..got a few ba..
1. Family..hope my family will be remain as happy..mummy nt naggy..daddy earn more money..brother dote on me. Most importantly, whole family stay heathly n trouble-free!

2. Friends..friends remain contacted..building stronger friendship w all my frenz..widening my circles of frenz. Most importantly also, to be a better friend!!

3. Army...hope the rest of my services will be served peacefully n i wun run into any trouble..army really a bit too scary at times. Hope the office politics wun involve me..ORD LOH!!

4. Life..knowing more abt life..exploring abt different aspect of live..if can, feel like gg oversea for hiking n exploring..one of my army fren did tt once!!So cool la..gg europe n live w the ppl there for 3 mths..exploring every part of the place..but tt requires money. So hope i strike 4D or TOTO also..haha..ok lame..

that's abt it le ba..i'm nt greedy, am i?these r simple enuff to be achieved ba..hope my wish can be granted!!Wuahah..if possible, let me find her also can? Thks!!

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To mE!!!

bday celebration 07

2007-01-08T07:58:00.000+08:00

argh!!i cant post my photos onto my blog..the system kp saying my id n password for my blog dun match..den hw i sign in here n blog de sia?dun get it..n my entry has juz been deleted..dunno wat i pressed..nw muz re-type again..argh!!

the gathering yday went well n fun!haha..kbox in the afternoon w the other 6 pals. Yeongtay is one of them..1st time he joined us for activity sia. I think he shld join us m0re often..rite sharon?ha..she got the honour to sing the 1st song w him yday. The song, 25 mins, may nt last 25 mins..bt guess it's enuff for her le ba.hee..yeongtay was so funny..kp commenting abt the MV. OMG!!ha..the whole 5 hrs were full of laughter n singing..sing until no voice..this is wat i called enjoyed singing ma!!ha..

steamboat after tt at one of the restuarant in tanglin mall..toking abt tt, sry to make those who have gone for the steamboat burnt a big hole in your wallet. i also feel the pain sia!!!too ex liao..but hope u all had fun so wun be so bad..haha..the steamboat was fun ah..the most amazing thingy is we found a man lamer den me!!!The restaurant's manager!!Wah...his bday songs for me was cold until we shiver man..haha..n made me like celeb 60th bday liddat..haha..but no matter wat, i appreciate his effort to wish me n made us really happy..haha..

Oh ya...got to c my yaopa, ROGER...finally i can c him le..quite a nice n funny guy..ha!!Thks yaotai for asking him along k? but dun give me his no ba..i really scare i will psycho him further!!Wuahaha..had fun taking fotos in front of the station also..will try to upload the fotos soon k?after my 'hello' turns normal..

Thks again for everyone who went for either the steamboat or kbox or both..thks for the present also!!!

(sry..this entry shld be up 2 days ago..but i forgot to publish..publish now k?)

watever....

2007-01-06T17:14:00.000+08:00

wkends arrive again..so excited..
later can c so many frenz le!! wat can be a happier thingy den this?
today is the 6th day of yr 07 le..
so far so gd!!i feel 07 is really our yr man!!
guess many ppl agree w me..
looking forward to discover more of this yr..
hope we have fun tmr.

Welcome 2007!!!

2007-01-02T09:23:00.000+08:00

Kissed farewell to 2006 n received 2007 with joy!!
Wat awaits before us really make us anxious.
Looking ard at blogs, seeing many ppl summarising yr 06.
Clara suggested tt i shld make one too..
i guess i shld ba..though 06 hadn't been smooth for me..

06 had been a yr tt i feel i've matured a lot..
i'm really taken out of the comfort zone..
tasting the outside world..

at the start of the yr..i was working in AH.
it's the 1st time i'm wking alone in my dept..
no familiar faces ard..dunno who to trust..
the job itself was quite taxing physically..
wking rain or shine..tired most of the time.
at the end of my wk wen i'm leaving for army,
i felt i learnt a lot..learnt abt logistic..
learnt abt the fierce completition between co-operations.
most importantly, i made frenz..
Jun bing, chee loong, kiankok, anothny, sunny, chee seng n my supervisior andy!!
These r the ppl tt i still contact frm time to time..
we wk as a team before..will always rem them..

enlisting into army marks my nxt stage of life..
Pulau Tekong is where i trained to becum a soldier..
My company mates, my platoon mates r my comrades!
in ULYSSES COY PLT 3 SECTION 1, really had lotsa tears n laughter..
we trained hard, played hard, bleed, fight n shared our lives there.
army really creates bonding between guys. totally agree!!
However, sumthing happened tt upsets my army life..
i injured myself in one of my SOC training..
it's the 1st time i feel the taste of been crippled.
the taste sux..simpliest thing such as walking takes great effort.
wah..so useless la..
despite my injury, i was posted to COMBAT ENGINEER in Seletar Camp.
Met another grp of comrades who eventually becums gd frenz.
Days in there were nt as great as in Tekong.
but we managed to motivate each other n pulled through.
my days as Bridging Engineer were fulfilling.
I learnt abt explosives..seeing charges n blowing up things.
I went through Boat Course, driving a boat is so fun!!
Jumped into sea w my SBO also..the feeling is also sux..
but gd experience for us to recall..
After gg thru all these, was posted to Engineer Transport Centre to be driver.
Sadly, my knee injury is so serious tt i cant be one.
Currently doing admin job in same place.
doing admin job is really sian..so much office politics..
i still prefer my days as combatant!!So much fun..
Nvm..i shall get my knee treated 1st..pray hard for me ba.

In this yr 06..really learnt a lot of things.
turning frm a student to soldier..
alr understood a lot of things. life is nt so simple.
Before enlistment, got back my As result
i sorta lost my goal after tt..
no motivation n no more dream..
Now i'm fine le..took a long time to recover..
I will accept it bravely as my failure..
juz hope i can find my way out..
yep!!tt's one of my resolution for yr 07!

in yr 07, i hope my army life will be a smooth one..
guan yin ma..tor long!!
tor long i ORD peacefully!!
tor long my find a way out to work towards my goal.
tor long i made achievements in life..
of cos, tor long me n my loved ones lead happy life..
tor long to minimise the troubles i encountered.
tor long 07 better den 06
tor long for me to tor long more!!
haha..getting greedy le..
no la..happy is most impt!!everyone happy jiu hao le!!

Walking thru so much in life...
i'm fortunate to have pals always beside me to give me support.
U guys noe who u r...thks man!!
i will always be grateful to u all..
shuhui said nv hear me say i love my mei..
wat a lousy kor am i man..
use this opportunity to say this to all my meis n frenz.
"i LOVE U ALL!!"
i really do...
Happy New Year Everyone!!

Prom nite 2006

2006-12-31T09:05:00.000+08:00

Went to JJ 2006 prom nite laz nite: A Pyrotchnic Odyssey
I was quite surprised that i saw quite a number of alumni ard.
When we asked ard be4 gg, many ppl dun seem to be gg.
Anyway, nice seeing those familiar faces there ah..
have a feeling tt i grad again le..through tt's nt true..
Saw a lot of tutors too..had a gd chat w a few..
ages are really catching up w them le..
at the same time, we r growing to becum adults le..ha..
nice to c all frenz r fine n enjoying life..
had fun joking ard n luffing thru'out..
mitting up once in a while is nt bad afterall eh?

The food served appears to be wat we have eaten laz yr..
Argh!!Y is the menu the same?haha..
be4 we enter the hall, we r telling each other tt we muz eat to the fullest tonite.
laz yr din get to eat cos bz taking fotos..
Duno y in the end wen we left i still feel hungry leh..
Din eat much also..
Din go clubbing in the end due to some reasons.
laz nite is ladies nite lo..
really admire being a lady suddenly..ha
n ya!!i enjoyed myself!!A fulfilling yday!Tired day today!ha!

lesson learnt today!!
toking to gers n to guys is different!!
will restrain frm toking too much to gers..
until i noe i've changed..
gd day pals!

Merry Xmas!!

2006-12-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas to everyone!!Urm..think the clock jiu passed 12 am ba..ha..but still..it's juz a greeting..Hope everyone had a nice xmas yday!!

Spent my sun nite n mon morning w the usual clique n had fun at meishan's hse..same old xmas n same old celebration every yr..but is everything still the same?? N will it still be the same for the sub-sequent xmas? Dun wish to think so much..Change is a constant ma..quoted frm sum1 who always say tt..i start to believe nth in this world can be preserved..Realised this long ago but juz dun wan to believe. I think i gotta start believing..dun wish to be the silly one. wen everyone has changed but i'm still the only one having hope or holding on to sumthing. Think human shld be more cruel isn't it? Wat's the big deal wen u r once an impt person to sum1 else? Now u r no longer impt le..so u better siam k? dun stop the world frm turning..such allegation is really cold-blooded rite? however, this is the way life is..so many ppl practise it. u may say u dun agree..but u practised it w/o u knowing..

I guessed i really nt used to living in this kinda life..feeling so uncomfortable..well..wat can i do?tt's life..
Thks meishan n ur family!!!Thks for supporting such a nice celeb n i really had fun!!Thks to those who went also for spending ur few hrs of your festive time w me!!Really grateful n thksful that u all r always there for me..Din send out any xmas card this yr cos wen i tot of sending, it's alr too late..Sry eh..anyway..below is juz a general xmas msg to all frenz:

Pals,
It's xmas time again!!!I will really make use of this opportunity to thks those who have been there for me n giving me watever u can to support my life..Yrs after yrs..we all have grown up n even grown old..friendship has always been the most precious thingy tt kp me gg..I always thks god for giving me my family n u guys..If nt i dun think my life will so perfect. I will like to seek forgiveness for watever wrong i have done..for any empty promises that i have made..I swear i wun make easy promises again. Juz dun take it on heart k?
Hope our friendship can last..last as long as possible..i'm glad enuff if u all will juz try ur bez...i noe it's nt easy..Take care!!

ok..tt's all for xmas!!Take care fren!!Merry xmas!!

The yaoguais outing...

2006-12-22T09:18:00.000+08:00

Had lunch with eileen, sharon n shuyi yday at vivo..All r yaoguais man!!haha..it has been a while since all of us met up tog le..esp eileen..SO BZ la.No time meet us..so i am glad she has time for us yday. Nice catching up with them..crapping most of the time as usual. Walking ard vivo and ate jap meal is wat we did..ha. quite relaxing ba..
After that went watch Eragon at JP with meishan, shuyi and meishan's sis, meikee. After buying the ticket ask them wat show is this man. So funny la..watching a show which i have no idea what is it abt.ha..Din regret watching the show at all man!!Nice nice!!very nice!!got the exciting feel la..the part wen the bad guy which is actually a shadow was killed, i was really tt high..ha. When the young dragon , Saphira, was bitten..omg!!i think my remarks made then are a bit unpleasant. sry k? but i just cant control..ha..how dare tt stupid dragon of that ugly n idiotic shadow bite Saphira?!以老欺小 lo!! Luckily she is fine eventually..so 庆幸!ha..
Today at 1st planned to go kboxing w hanling, huiwen n xiuhui..was cancelled due to sum prob..
Received a letter asking me to go for psychological test today at MMI..so funny..wonder wat kinda test is tt..changed the appt so today i've nth to do again..wat a boring day..tmr gg back to tekong le..a bit looking forward to c that island..miss the place..

I'm still a coward..no guts man!!So useless. Speechless..confused..

Leave lo!!!Yeah!!!

2006-12-16T00:11:00.001+08:00

Yesh!!!Finally struggled thru the wk le!!N guess wat? Nxt wk is my leave wk le!!Woohoo!!Long break for me to re-charge!!The past wk is kinda hectic for me..Have been answering calls n entertaining a lot of ppl. Ppl indenting this indenting that..so sickening..The Warrant Officer that attached me to do all these suddenly told me today that all these can actually be done by the individual platoon. Dun nd me to specially sit there n do. Looks like he wanted to post me back to help him again. Wah!I'm like a ball rolling here n there leh. Can they give me a permanent place where i can wk for the rest of NS days..kp changing lo..den in the end i do everybody's job..crazy de..

nvm..Leave cuming le!!!Nt gg to think abt army le..let it stay in Seletar Camp ba..Gg to mit up w sum frenz n i think gg to watch movie..oh!!So looking forward..cant wait man..Am i like too playful? Who cares!!That's me..Oh ya!!gg to pia sum shows also..hope my leave will be occupied!!

Anyone ON to go seaside walk walk? I wanted to go leh..Very long din go le..wan go there relax.

Red-Star Award 2006

2006-12-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching the Red-Star award..
Sad to observe n realise that our media is getting very LAN.
Award winners seem to have the liking of toking craps.
Mr Huang Y L is worst man!!
Cant imagine a guy who is so not gentleman lo!
Suan his ex-wife until liddat..
Still say he is actually having guilt towards her. Crap man!!
He totally spoilt the image of all the artists lo.
He shld be thrown out of the mediacrop man..
who the heck still let him win awards despite his misbehaviour every yr?
Even the guy..(aiya..i forgot his name le) The guy who present the best actress award de.
Ya..even he also suan our media man!!totally no face lo..
In the end our actresses also kanna suan..said they nt pretty..Poor thingy.

The best part is the last part man!!
Huang jia hui is so funny!!
but all my attention was given to XUAN XUAN..
Woo!!!I like her man...she's really my dream ger...
Germit is so funny also..his KNS!!Woo..bez..

Do u guys feel most artists this yr r like 拿奖拿得很苦?
Dunno leh..feel that most ppl r nt very happy.
Is life really that bitter recently?
ok..cya guys!tc!!

Kboxing on 091206

2006-12-09T23:16:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired nw...Omg!!
haha..went kboxing with sharon and shuyi today.
5 hrs of laughter and singings in that mini lounge.
Sang a lot of songs...i think half of them r old songs!
Really sang my heart out man!!haha..
Realised sharon n sx are of the same type..
they r gd in kids songs!!haha..sumthing new that i noe abt sharon today.ha!

After kboxing we went to the frame shop to find frame for the jigsaw.
Sadly, it has been closed le..Looks like the jigsaw juz cant find a shell.
Hope to find it soon so we can give it to its owner!

Had dinner w my dear mei, sharon. Tok abt sum personal thingy.
Laid out all my views which wun mean any help i guess.
It's still the decision that will be made at last that matters.
N it's so confusing..believe or nt?tt's the qn!
No matter wat..pls stop hurting my loved ones.pls..i beg u..

Reached hm and now i am bloggin online..
Tots are filling up my mind..
Stm human's weakness is thinking too much.
Think abt stuff that i shld nt be thinking.
thnking of one-sided stuff n letting my imagination run wild.
I guess i will be crazy if this carry on...
Wen can i put a stop to all these..

A great day i had...thks sharon n shuyi!
Hope to meet up soon again!tc!

桌球与人生

2006-11-26T01:49:00.003+08:00

近期迷上了桌球。。。
你们一定会说我很爱玩。但在打球的当儿我也有在思考的哦！
我领悟了桌球与人生其实非常相似！
桌上的每一粒球都仿佛是人生的每一个经历。
在打球时最重要的是几大要素:
为了方便辩解，我就用简单的词汇来说明。好球就是 Friendly ball. 坏球就是 Opponent ball.

一，打球时的技巧和准确度很重要。每一粒球的去向完全由你来主宰。
当好球被坏球挡住时，必须想方法用另类的技巧打到心目中理想的球。
打到了还不足够，必须入洞才算数。
这如同人生一样。每个经历不一定顺利。但至少要懂得拐弯达到目的。
花无百日红，人无千日好。人生必有不如意的。
遇到挫折时不轻易言败就能看到胜利的光芒。（没根据的！！哈哈）

二，打球讲究力道。有些球须用劲但有些轻轻一碰就搞定。
人生也是如此。该放软时不必太过坚硬。相反的，该坚硬是不能心软。
若做不到就便会事得起反。软硬不容切比自毙。

三，打球时的态度一定要有虚心。骄兵必败，只有胜而不骄者才能保存实力。
可是信心不可绝少。对自己打出的球没信心，那就轮到对方打了。

四，打球也须要运气。有时真是衰到。。。。。福建话说养鸟变公鸡。
明明省一粒黑球入洞就胜了。可是人算不如天算。
“扑通 ” 两声，白球与黑球应声一同入洞。
你这才怨天骂地，不明白为何那两粒球这么要好？连入洞也要一起去。
没法子，只好乖乖地对对方说：“ Good Game!!"
哈哈！！真是冤枉！！

总而言之，人生该和桌球一样。在打球时要认真。但不要忘了要有说有笑。
人生有无数的球要打。一场球一打就是数十年。你要紧绷着脸的打球？
还是要把它当成是一种娱乐。一切只在一念之间。
人生苦或乐，一切在于你自己！

退后

2006-11-18T19:22:00.001+08:00

。。。我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后。。。

以上的两句话相信大家都会觉得非常熟悉。
它除了是歌词之外，也是多么有道理的一番话啊。
这世上有许多人只会盲从的向前，从来没想过要退后。
这繁华都市与不断在向前的社会已巩固了这样的思想。
人们渐渐地厌倦了退后，害怕退后，以为退后等于落后。
但是真的是这么一回事吗？
得与失之间要怎么取得一个平衡，
我想是每个人绞尽脑汁也无法得到的一个答案吧？
有人说人生嘛，其实很简单也很平凡。
还有人常问，难道我就不能平凡一点吗？
人生的复杂和无奈不纯粹是在平凡中寻找不平凡时自找的吗？
自作孽不可活！人啊，真是活该！！！

我也是个活该的人。提得起放不下，自寻烦恼！
近期觉得无比的纳闷与暴躁。
心烦意乱的我不知为何变得如此愚蠢。
我的脑袋已经不能和我的心沟通了。
不是说好不想了吗？不是承认都是错觉了吗？
为什么她说的话会在我心里造成波浪？
心情也瞬时间转阴。
有时真想不跟她说话。
不愿意她来影响我的生活。
但是我做得到吗？面对她我始终无法残忍。
无法在她面前显示出一丝丝的不安。
因为我知道一切都不可能。她也不是我要找的人。
我知道我必须退后，必须和我心里的恶魔战斗。
我会输吗？我不能肯定，但我会尽力。
因为我知道我需要退后。

。。。我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过。。。

Kbox trip 281006

2006-10-30T14:19:00.000+08:00

Went kboxing with zhe, pong, zz, hh and tl.
Has been a long time since i go kbox le..Really quite fun..Finally managed to sing till i shuang.
Was there to de-stress de..But dun think i managed to completely get rid of it ba..
We r so high la!!Most of the time ba..Sang sum weird weird song also la..
n i feel i really more n more like ah pek le leh!!
Argh!!Can anyone pls save me?haha!!
But think abt it again..What's wrong being a bit more mature? Right?haha..
The above qn is juz a passing remark.Pls dun make comments or ans it k?thks!
Poor Fan Fan also got insulted becos of me..her name becum Fat Fat.Omg!!
I'm used to it le la. Juz feel sorry for Fan Fan!!haha..
Well..really had fun man!!Looking forward to another kboxing trip!
Anyone organising? haha..
Tired ah..For the whole of this wk hasn't really been myself.
Wat's wrong w me?Is it becos tireness is affecting me?
Hopefully is liddat ba.

Fuck-up officer..

2006-10-24T07:43:00.000+08:00

Shldn't i be doing my duty now?
No..Becos a officer very nice!!asked me dun nd do can go hm.
Guys!!Have u heard of such a nice officer?Nv rite?
So heng of me to meet one!
But so suay of me also to find out he's actually a KANASAI one.
Most shitty ppl i ever met.
Becos of him, i have to do duty tmr..cant enjoy Hari Raya!
I'm alrite w doin duty..but can tell me earlier?
Dun tell me to go back n cum again sum other day wen i'm there alr.
I dun enjoy taking buses n mrt for nth.
I prefer lying on my bed
Esp wen this morning is raining, prefect weather to slp!
I noe everything is too sudden..he is juz informed of his duty also.
But doesn't mean his day is affected, he has the rite to affect mine.
Feel so innocent man!!Eventually feel so suay instead.
Wat can i do? Ppl endure thru 9 more mths of tough training den u ma..
Ppl has a bar on his shoulder ma..
Wat can u say? Come boy..put ur thumb into ur mouth n suck k?
Shitty A_M_!!fill in the blank urself.
17 more mths to go..
Enduring!!Tolerating!!Compromising!!
I miss sch!!
I miss the days wen i'm still chionging sua too!!
At least i feel more comfortable!!
Comrades!!How r u all?
Enjoy ur holiday!!

joke 1

2006-10-21T09:11:00.000+08:00

好想有个太太

好想有个太太，为我做饭烧菜。
现实却很无奈，让我仍需等待。
也因寂寞难耐，谈过几次恋爱。
谁知屡战屡败，轻轻松松被踹。
其实我也奇怪，为啥总被淘汰。
历尽打击伤害，总算知道大概。
嫌我不讲穿戴，嫌我长得不帅。
嫌我个头太矮，嫌我没有气派。
熊猫长得不帅，却受世人关爱。
丑是自然灾害，矮是因为缺钙。
做人只求正派，讲啥穿戴气派！
我们这个年代，注定缺少真爱。
女人不是太坏，就是心胸狭隘。
或许除此之外，还有部分可爱。
只怕时至现在，早已有了后代。
面对这种事态，不要气急败坏。
我们除了忍耐，至少还能等待。
只要相信真爱，她就一定存在。
要么咱就不爱，爱就爱个痛快。
没有爱的灌溉，生活百无聊赖。
只有好的心态，才能保持愉快。
爱情也有好赖，绝对不可草率。
我是愿意等待，哪怕青春不在。

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This poem suits me eh?Wat u think?

Movie "Death note"

2006-10-15T10:10:00.000+08:00

Watched a movie today w shan n shuyi. DEATH NOTE!!haha..the name sounds scary n you kan tou..Was it really so? haha..after the show, the complaints from shan showed how boring the movie was.Ok..shldn't say the movie really very boring la..There r sum climax la..just tt the difference in the atmosphere wasn't very significant ba. so cant really bring out the exciting feeling. Guess the only part that made my heart jump is the part wen the wei wen qi of the FBI detective fired her pistol ba. The sound of the shot a bit sudden.

Well, although this movie nt very interesting, it showed the ugly side of human being. With the power to destinate other ppl's life, a lawyer that is lawful and full of ambition to uphold justice actually became sumone who disrupt and act against it. He even use his gf's life as his plan to get close to the FBI so they wun suspect him. I wonder wat's on his mind wen he pen down his gf's name on the death note, planning the death of his gf who love him completely. Is he a moron or an idiot?

it's sat le!!The wk is cuming to an end!!Hope we will have a wonderful wkend!!Enjoy everyone!!

Sharon: When u wan ur escape trip to be?nxt wk? Stop scolding me pig k? I'm yaowang lo!!haha..

Pong's bday celeb..

2006-10-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

Celebrated pong's bday today..A belated celebration!!Nevertheless..Think we have fun ba..Had bowling at Marina Square and finally dinner at Siam Kitchen..A lot of laughters in between..very fun ba..The expression i enjoyed the most is laugh..though very tiring, at least at tt pt of time, i'm one of the most xin fu de ren..To be xin fu is nt easy k??Nt very very difficult also..But muz depends on ppl ard u n ur luck ba..I'm lucky to have both..Cheers..Hope pong enjoyed himself!!Sry for nt being able to go drink w u..Dun like to go pubbing de..U shld noe ba..La kopi suits me more ba..haha!!
Heard of the ans of my bro..glad he finally made up his mind..clear his doubts..but wonder if it's really wat he wans. Many ppl noe wat they r doing..But many dun really noe wat they have done is rite or nt? Follow their hearts a not..Of cos, clearing doubts may create even more uncertainties.There are always qns after qns..Nt thinking too much abt it will solve the prob ba..anyway, since made up mind le jiu dun think le ba..hope it's the bez for them!!TC!!

HAF

2006-10-07T16:26:00.000+08:00

A very Happy Mid-Autuum Festival to all!!Time to eat mooncake again lo!!hahahaha..it also means the yr is 3/4 thru le..gg to end le lo..the nxt chi festival think is chi new yr le ba? Looks forward man!!haha..
Yday sumthing very 'big' happened in my coy..I'm nt allowed to say it out..so hope dun mind..Wat's the matter is nt impt..Wat's impt is it made my day becum so hectic..nt my job becum my job..summore still met ppl who dun wish to co-operate.
U all got met such kind of ppl meh? Help them do their job still dun wan to co-operate by providing necessary information. Stupid rite? Stm really wonder how cum human beings juz cant help one another accomplish things faster. Muz hinder each other cai gan yuan. Live n let live ma!!No common sense man...
Sumthing happened yday also tt really pissed me off..I muz emphasis this to those holding ranks..esp officers..Please..rank is only a tatoo on ur shoulders or on ur arms. Rank is telling ppl how capable u r..but whether to prove ur rank rite or nt still depends on individual. If u dun present tt kind of capability, u dun worth wat ur rank speaks of u. As simple as u r juz wearing uniform w tatoo..mite as well sew dragons on ur uniform? Can be emperor summore..better rite?? Pls act up to the standard of wat ur rank showed. Want ppl to respect u, show them u have the capability to respect them 1st. Once u lost their respect, tt's it!!It wun be easy to gain them back. No matter wat rank u r holding, wan respect? EARN IT!!
Tmr gg to mit many of my great frenz!!Look forward man!!Hope it will be a nice nice gathering!!haha..let me enjoy n forget abt all these "shit" ba!!Tc guys!!
ps: Mei: thks for still being an audience of my blog k?thks for ur msg!
Niang: Really surprise to c ur tag..How have u been? Kit k??haha..Thks for ur msg..feel more comforted!!

Life can also be meaningful...

2006-09-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

Hihi!!It's a long time since i last update again..Guess no many ppl check out this blog anymore le ba..Sorry for those who still check once in a while..Quite lazy to update blog so only blog once a while or when i have strong feeling in mind..

Life is still the same for me..Army everyday n i'm sorta used to it le..I'm a six mths soldier le!!Yeah!!3/4 more to go..very fast de la..Time flies eh?Half a yr jiu liddat finished le. Time is really precious..Yup!!Although i said in my last blog i'm slacking most of the time, it's all in the past le..I'm trying to make every min in my life now worthwhile. Have a lot of plans in mind..Nd time to slowly accomplish them.

Just had a chatting session with D4. Quite fun..Long time since we sit down n chat le..A lot of things in life has changed. The topics we tok abt, the place we meet for the chat, the kind of reaction we gave during the chat and even the drinks we had have changed. This showed we have grown up? The same old ppl but all the above mentioned factors are all diff le..The feelings are also not the same le.. but i'm really glad we still meet up, we still have each other in mind. Pals, i dun believe in promises such as we will always be gd frenz forever, i will nv forget you. Wat's forever n wat's nv? Who can guranttee all these? i agree w shuyi, nv give empty promises when u noe u cant guranttee u can kp to all these. Frenz can be the greatest motivation in life but they can also be ppl that ruin ur life. Please treat frenz whole-heartedly. When ppl give u his/her love, dun be tt stingy in just receiving. That person nds a confirmation that his/her love is received before he/she can carry on giving. Juz a gentle reminder..Hope none of us falls into the STINGY type of ppl k?haha..

Ok!!shall stop here..will update more often in future de!!If i have the feeling n energy.haha!!

Ps:
Xiuhui: Thks for ur comments. Dun worry..I'm still alive. glad to c ur words. Yup!!I'm nt slacking..I'm also bz accepting the colours ppl add to my life. U r one of them. So thks eh!!haha..Hope u r doing fine and pls kp in contact!!Tc!!

Posted out as driver...

2006-08-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

Yoz!!2 mths din blog le..so sorry..really dun have the mood n the time to blog..Suddenly find it hard to pen my life dwn in words and put it on web also..anyway..my life is really in a mess la..nth much gd to note down also..haha..
2 days ago just received battalion order that i've been posted to Seletar Engineer Transportation Centre as driver..Omg!!!I'm no longer a bridging engineer..Wen i heard this, i really have mix feeling man..Actually i'm long ago mentally prepared to be posted out one day due to my knee injury..they cant afford to kp me w injury.but i din expect the posting to be so soon..glad as i dun have to tolereate the torture of my OC anymore..but sad cos i have to leave those close platoon mates i have n sum sgts who start to become close to me also..I've gone thru so much in this bridging course le..everything i had done except for the last comet training..having completed that i'm considered a trained bridging engineer le..Y dun they let me complete the course be4 posting me out?haiz..really dun like this feeling of learning things halfway n forced to stop.In army we always say LAN LAN SUCK THUMB..Ppl who crabs on their shoulder will have the final say of our destiny in these 2 yrs.Used to it le...

Haiz..suddenly feel so slack in life..Wat the hell am i doing man!!Slacking thru my life..It's has been a long time since i sense achievement in life!!!Argh!!!I cant take it anymore..Can i have sum chances for me to achieve sumthing!!!i noe i choose to gave up a lot of chances!!i do regret and i noe hw foolish n childish i had been!!What i hope now is chance for me to make up..to make up for all the time i have wasted..slacking is really tiring...it made me feel so tired of living also..mite as well die off frm this world rite?but this is nt wat i wan!!I choose to believe..believe i will have a fresh turn over one day..I will stand firm in this belief..as there's nth i can do now except for believing..everything will be fine one day..

One more wk to POP

2006-05-29T02:48:00.000+08:00

Time flies eh..it has been a long time since i update my blog..life is really getting very hectic once we enter army..time for rest is never sufficent..tireness becomes very common everyday..The desire to make every tiring day pass is too strong that we lost track of time..lost track of things happening ard us n lost care n concern we ought to show..nearly lost track of me ever living in this world...
A lot of things happened..human beings started to become very un-predictable..they start to hurt ppl whom they once swear they will take care of..becos of such acts going on ..nowadays swear frm guys to gers r no longer believed or taken seriously.Y human beings changed so fast?No matter wat..hope the SINS committed by these irresponsible human beings will be forgiven one day n the victims will heal her wound soon.
I once feel life is very simple..just has to went through things n things that appear before u..however, i never think one day i will feel so scare..so scare that things will stop appearing be4 me for me to go through..Where my future will be?which way shld i head?All r qns i have no idea how to ans..nobody can lead me along..here, i'm the leader n i'm also the only follower..Wat shld i do n wat is best for me?Layers n layers of stress consistently laid on me..i have difficulty breathing le..I feel i'm still a child..prone to get lost easier..hope i can be strong enuff to find solution n i have to do it!!it's my life...
Life is always perishable..Everybody is fine this moment..who can be sure they will be fine nxt moment?I just went through an experience i nv went be4 in my life..nt too bad..at least i noe life is perishable now..i will cherish it even more..rite sharon n shuyi??haha!!Stop laughing pls!!well..that's nt the main pt i wan to say..wat i wan to say is that stm we noe wat's bothering our health or life n stm we dun...no matter we noe or nt, life still goes on..whether today is our last day w our loved ones or nt we still have to live through..Mei..dun let things that shldn't be bothering u to bother u..life r all fated..just go through it happily n the process will be wat u yield..
I feel all of u wun get wat i wan to say in all my paragrahes in my entry today..so if u all r confuse, pls ignore k?tc everyone!!One more wk to POP!!!!

2006-04-15T12:32:00.000+08:00

It's a long wkend le..feel so gd to be able to rest..Still feeling very tired now though.Hope by tmr will feel refreshed le..today is my dear mei, DIL's bday!!HaPpY BiRtHdAy mei!!!A few of us went to surprise her last nite n wished her happy bday on the 1st hr of today..haha..so fun..1st time leh..also 1st time i wear smart 4 to wish ppl happy bday..feel so weird..haha..anyway, juz hope she will enjoy her bday can le..
Well..5 wks have past le..I've survived through..haha..still got 8 wks more to go..seems long eh?haha..The bmt batches have enlisted..which means my classmates they all have joined the army also le..After hearing which company they enlisted to, i suddenly feel so relieve to fail my napfa.haha..they are enlisted to either mohawk or ninja la..Both the xiongest company in whole of tekong..haha..Dil n sharon, ur dear Yeongtay is at ninja leh..The most xiong company i think..After he passed out, think u all will love him even more..he alr so fit le..sure get more fitter de lo..haha..I still din get to c him leh..no fate w him sia..saw all my other frenz le but nt him..hope can get to c him soon..
Nxt few wks will be very busy for me..They r clearing all the major events..i'll gg through range nxt wk..get to fire off my 1st live round using M16..gdluck to me ba..heard that range is one of the event that is easiest to get extra confinement, guard duty or even get charged..Hope nth wil happen to me..n hope i can get best shot in my company ba..hehehe..29th to 4th of may i think is my field camp..7 days in forest..wah..7 days of tough n high discipline training..a bit scare sia..haha..straight after that is my situation handling test..also in jungle..3 days 2 nites i think..in between still got standard obstacle course to clear..all physically challenging leh..if after these few wks i still cant slim..means that's it le..haha..
k la..gtg le..msg me more leh k??Update me things though sms also can..i can read wen i'm free..think i sorta lost touch w many things le..take care everyone...
Xj: i where got shout at ur canteen?when?haha...

2nd bk out...

2006-04-02T02:46:00.000+08:00

Happy april fool day!!!haha..1/4/06 le..wah..very fast hor?2006 is alr 1/4 gone..like wasting all these time leh..besides working like nth much le..3 wks in army le..Rem i said the ending of 2 wks adjustment period?It really mark a start of terrible life..haha..everyday getting all sorts of punishments..i really very afraid of getting guard duty or confinement den i cant bk out..My company very strict on discipline lo..Whenever we fall in, if we forget to bring sumthing w us, immediately we will get guard duty or confinement..strict rite?think no other company is as crazy as ours..really very stress sumtime..action muz be fast n cannot miss out things..everyday will get 100+ to 200+ of push-ups..one area cleaning can do 100+ le..but pong n hh said it's normal la..think i'll get used to it soon ba..hope i'll get used soon ba..haha..just got my M16 on thurs..holding on to my own weapon is nice..tt's wen i really feel i'm a soldier..nonetheless, this weapon adds on to responsibility as a soldier..anything happen to it will means u all wun c me le..haha..no la..wun be that suay de la..10 more wks to POP..all the bez to me ba..haha..

Sharon n Yaotai: haha..dun worry..i'm handling well inside..muz work hard to be fit m rite?haha..i noe 10 wks very fast de..it's alr 3 wks le..haha..tc hor!!

After 2 wks of confinement...

2006-03-27T05:08:00.000+08:00

Finally!!The 2 wks confinement has ended..Does that means i've fully accepted the life in army?haha..it still remains a doubtful qn to me..Commanders said the end of 2 wks of adjustment period to them means we have fully adjusted to army life..Think the rest of 11 wks wun be as slack as the past 2 wks le..Well..i feel army is a fun place ba..we can meet all sorts of ppl n joke n play ard with the so-called buddies..haha..no matter how tough the training is, we can always joke n make fun of the things we do n c..guess this is the motivation that makes us move on n on in army ba..W/o these, life in tekong will be really unbearable..sian n dull..
After becoming part of the defence force of Singapore, we really realise safeguarding the things that we have now is a tough job..being civilians will nv noe how perishable peace can be..So nv take it for-granted..
Bking in again later..feel very sian again..everything is going to be restricted again..gotta listen to scoldings n get lotsa puishment again..haha.Recruit's life is juz liddat..haha..Hope i wun do anything seriously wrong or get any extras so i can peacefully bk out nxt wk..haha..k la..tc every!!

2006-02-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

Yaowang!!!

2006-02-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

This is CEO of AH..Mr Chew Soon Hui..haha..no la..just joking..it's Yaowang!!haha..

2006-02-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Me on a stepping stage..Sometimes we have to use such tall stepping stage to get things high up..After taking this foto..i still muz help sani carry the gloves on top down on return leh..mean hor him?haha..

2006-02-25T00:36:00.001+08:00

Does this look familiar?Yup!!It's a scene found in I NT STUPID TOO..I specially go up take de leh..haha..